Midway upon the road of our life I found myself within a dark wood...
...For the right way had been missed.
Again, I dreamed. And like nearly every dream I've had for the past year, she was in it. I don't know if it's been pure exhaustion, or just the klonopin I took, but somehow I managed to fucking dream.
And it was even a nightmare by normal standards. Not frightening images, no demons or devils lurking in corners. But I still woke up with a cold sweat, and I couldn't sleep again. Though, if I dreamt every night as last night, mayhaps I wouldn't want to wake up.
It's been almost a year. 13 days, actually. And still, I'm not fucking over it. And it's not for a lack of trying!! I try everyday, every fucking day, to forget. And it just ain't happenin'! Everyday I work to distract and distance myself, and still by the end of each day, she creeps into the back of my skull.
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to stop it. And I fear it may be the death of me.
Again, I dreamed. And like nearly every dream I've had for the past year, she was in it. I don't know if it's been pure exhaustion, or just the klonopin I took, but somehow I managed to fucking dream.
And it was even a nightmare by normal standards. Not frightening images, no demons or devils lurking in corners. But I still woke up with a cold sweat, and I couldn't sleep again. Though, if I dreamt every night as last night, mayhaps I wouldn't want to wake up.
It's been almost a year. 13 days, actually. And still, I'm not fucking over it. And it's not for a lack of trying!! I try everyday, every fucking day, to forget. And it just ain't happenin'! Everyday I work to distract and distance myself, and still by the end of each day, she creeps into the back of my skull.
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to stop it. And I fear it may be the death of me.