Dreaming Of Him
I wrote this last night..... thought I'd share... comment if you want....
As I look at my calendar, I see your face. Only 20 days left till I see you again. I tell myself it's not that long. But I can't help feeling that the next 20 days are going to be the longest days of my life. I sigh at the thought. I miss you so much. As I listen to our song, tears dwell in my eyes. I've heard this song so many times before, over and over, hearing every word and thinking of you. As a tear falls down my cheek, my lips tremble. I sit here and hold my pillow, dreaming of your arms around me, holding me. I can feel you here but your so far away. It's been so long since I've seen your smile, felt your touch, looked in to your eyes. Even hearing your voice on the phone, it drives me insane with pain, pain of missing you, the pain that comes with loving someone and being apart. I look at your photo, your eyes staring at me. Your watching me, I know. I wake up hoping that when I roll over you'll be there, watching me, waiting for me. But your not, not yet. I dream of our life together, how perfect things will be. But I know things won't always go to plan. This wasn't the plan, for me to fall in love with you just as I had to leave. But it happened and I'm glad. I didn't plan for you to come in to my life and make everything so perfect. I want for the day that you come down here for real, to be with me every second of every day. To spend my life with you. I never thought I'd feel the way I feel about you, to love someone and them to love me in return. You give me all the things I've never had and for that I love you. You let me be who I really am and for that I love you. You are everything I've ever wanted in my life and never thought I deserved and for that I love you. You love me with every part of your heart and soul and for that... I love you...
11:38pm 1st January 2006
7 minutes after a conversation with Dax:)
As I look at my calendar, I see your face. Only 20 days left till I see you again. I tell myself it's not that long. But I can't help feeling that the next 20 days are going to be the longest days of my life. I sigh at the thought. I miss you so much. As I listen to our song, tears dwell in my eyes. I've heard this song so many times before, over and over, hearing every word and thinking of you. As a tear falls down my cheek, my lips tremble. I sit here and hold my pillow, dreaming of your arms around me, holding me. I can feel you here but your so far away. It's been so long since I've seen your smile, felt your touch, looked in to your eyes. Even hearing your voice on the phone, it drives me insane with pain, pain of missing you, the pain that comes with loving someone and being apart. I look at your photo, your eyes staring at me. Your watching me, I know. I wake up hoping that when I roll over you'll be there, watching me, waiting for me. But your not, not yet. I dream of our life together, how perfect things will be. But I know things won't always go to plan. This wasn't the plan, for me to fall in love with you just as I had to leave. But it happened and I'm glad. I didn't plan for you to come in to my life and make everything so perfect. I want for the day that you come down here for real, to be with me every second of every day. To spend my life with you. I never thought I'd feel the way I feel about you, to love someone and them to love me in return. You give me all the things I've never had and for that I love you. You let me be who I really am and for that I love you. You are everything I've ever wanted in my life and never thought I deserved and for that I love you. You love me with every part of your heart and soul and for that... I love you...
11:38pm 1st January 2006
7 minutes after a conversation with Dax:)