Exposed
Dancing in the moonlight I saw you standing against the brink of day. Your skin illuminated in the light of the sun but your eyes empty and cold. You watched me dancing in my naked bliss, smooth and milky in the light of the moon. Two different creatures in love but separated by the night and the day. You are everything that I want to be. I am everything that you wish you could have. A forlorn blend of fire and ice, surviving, but eventually one will put the other out. I'm standing against the ocean's waves as the sun begins to rise, it is the first time that I truly notice your smile and how it makes me feel so alive. I want to run to you, take you into my arms, but I know that I cannot exist in the light. I would wither away and die. Your back is to me now as my nightcloak fades away. I will not see you again until tomorrow and you will not miss me until tonight...
That right there was for you Jersey. I don't know when we're ever going to see each other again and if we don't at least we've got all these memories of taking our first steps into adulthood together out on our own. Freshman year, ladie, I'll never forget it and every time I read that I remember what you were going through. Max is the one for you.
My News::
I was crying because you left me and you didn't say goodbye. I'm stanging here naked so afraid to open my eyes. I feel you all around me and I can't believe its true. That you're back and still in love with me after all that we've been through.
I can feel my heartbeat again. Rodney and I appear to be back together. This morning about 1:30am he called me while I was out with friends and just started talking about our past and our last days together before I left for college. The next thing I know he's talking about retrials and doing it again. Can I be any happier? Like, this entire month has been such a turn around for me, you guys. New job, old and new friends better than ever, back in church again, this sense of empowerment...and the one thing in this world that I know is truer than anything else I have ever or will ever feel again in my life. I love him and, God, it takes a lot for me to say those words and mean them.
Jersey, this is directly for you because you know how hard it is for me to tap into my emotions like this. We were in church together (he goes to the church that I grew up in and recently decided to go back to)and the reverend was preaching. I almost started crying because I saw my whole life beginning and flourishing right there before my eyes, you know? I saw us standing at that alter and exchanging vows with our family all around us. I see my mother and how proud she is of me, of us, of how far we've come. I see us married and having children and being so strong unlike the way I grew up without a father figure in my life...I just envision all of these things happening for us in the way that he, yes RODNEY, said it would go the very first day that he met me. I'm feeling a hundred and one different things, J, and I'm so scared. Not scared in the way that things might go wrong but in the sense that I've never been here before and that I knew it would come to this one day.
I have to break up with Archie now...I messed around and got mixed up in that again when my friend got me all worked up and thinking that things would never play out the way that they now are. Its only been about a week. God, don't let this hurt him because its the last thing in the world that I want to do but to the same effect this is something that has to be done for me. For the rest of my life. For my future. Wish me luck and except the resignation of my PIMP CARD. Its over!
That right there was for you Jersey. I don't know when we're ever going to see each other again and if we don't at least we've got all these memories of taking our first steps into adulthood together out on our own. Freshman year, ladie, I'll never forget it and every time I read that I remember what you were going through. Max is the one for you.
My News::
I was crying because you left me and you didn't say goodbye. I'm stanging here naked so afraid to open my eyes. I feel you all around me and I can't believe its true. That you're back and still in love with me after all that we've been through.
I can feel my heartbeat again. Rodney and I appear to be back together. This morning about 1:30am he called me while I was out with friends and just started talking about our past and our last days together before I left for college. The next thing I know he's talking about retrials and doing it again. Can I be any happier? Like, this entire month has been such a turn around for me, you guys. New job, old and new friends better than ever, back in church again, this sense of empowerment...and the one thing in this world that I know is truer than anything else I have ever or will ever feel again in my life. I love him and, God, it takes a lot for me to say those words and mean them.
Jersey, this is directly for you because you know how hard it is for me to tap into my emotions like this. We were in church together (he goes to the church that I grew up in and recently decided to go back to)and the reverend was preaching. I almost started crying because I saw my whole life beginning and flourishing right there before my eyes, you know? I saw us standing at that alter and exchanging vows with our family all around us. I see my mother and how proud she is of me, of us, of how far we've come. I see us married and having children and being so strong unlike the way I grew up without a father figure in my life...I just envision all of these things happening for us in the way that he, yes RODNEY, said it would go the very first day that he met me. I'm feeling a hundred and one different things, J, and I'm so scared. Not scared in the way that things might go wrong but in the sense that I've never been here before and that I knew it would come to this one day.
I have to break up with Archie now...I messed around and got mixed up in that again when my friend got me all worked up and thinking that things would never play out the way that they now are. Its only been about a week. God, don't let this hurt him because its the last thing in the world that I want to do but to the same effect this is something that has to be done for me. For the rest of my life. For my future. Wish me luck and except the resignation of my PIMP CARD. Its over!