The LJ Confessionals
I was incredibly bored yesterday and ended up joining Gaysir.no, which is a Norwegian social networking site for gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgendered people. I do this from time to time. Check out various Norwegian social networking sites, I mean. Sometimes with fake accounts, and sometimes with real accounts. Still surprising to see that all Norwegian sites like this look and operate in the same way. Are they all run and populated by the same people? o_o; I'm beginning to think so. How bizarre.
I also find it quite ironic that within five minutes of signing up, I received three sleazy messages from older men. What? I guess some things are just unavoidable on sites like this T_T; And I guess I've got myself to blame since I put up that I like both girls and guys (which is the truth after all). When browsing profiles, though, I've found that a lot of bisexual girls put up that they're only interested in girls. Perhaps to avoid icky messages from older men?
It's interesting to note that the site's userbase is 70% males and 30% females (people who don't associate with a gender aren't a part of their statistics, not sure why). It may well be the first time I'm on a social networking site where girls are in the minority. At least most of the guys will leave us alone 8D
I've put up a real account (though scarce on personal info), with my finger constantly hovering over the "delete my profile"-button. I'm obviously not looking for anything other than perhaps new acquaintances or friendships, so I think my profile will be largely ignored by most :P At the same time I'm curious (oh lol) about the people frequenting the site. I would like to get to know someone and have someone to talk to about sexual orientation issues. It's a part of myself I've been ignoring for far too long (and when I say "been ignoring" I mean in the sense that I've told myself it's pointless to even bring it up, seeing as I'm in a straight relationship and extremely happy with where I'm at). Still, I realise that there's a part of me that needs to be open about it. I lust on girls way too much to feel comfortable calling myself straight. But there's still this little voice in my head telling me that I don't really want people I know to find me on a site like that. Networking sites like this don't exactly have the best reputation, ahahhaha.
Really though this issue has been gnawing at me for quite some time. I guess most of you guys know that I'm bi, as I've hinted to it before... but I've never quite allowed myself to identify as such. After all I've never had any real experiences with another girl (whatever that means)... but I just know that this is how I'm wired. I've finally realised that I don't need to have those kind of experiences to call myself bi. I blame t.A.T.u. for making it impossible for me to tell others that I'm bi. Honestly, I figured this shit out right around the time when they first crawled into the international spotlight T_T; At first I thought, "omg yay awesome, it'll be easier to tell others! :D", but then suddenly being bi was the hip thing to do and people were hating on girls my age who called themselves bi (because how could they know if they'd never even been with a girl?). ahjgahjkg. To be honest I quite often find myself jokingly thinking that I'm a lesbian who happens to like Christian. XDDDDD. Nah I've been interested in other guys too like... uhm. Ewan McGregor and... Janove Ottesen. Yeah, I don't know. <,<;;; Christian is special ♥
Lol. My parents don't know, and I think it'll stay like that until.. I don't know. Something big happens. When I first took mum with me to see Mannen som elsket Yngve (The Man Who Loved Yngve), it was because I meant to tell her. But then in the end I couldn't, and fell back on the whole "but I'm with Christian, so it doesn't even matter~"-argument. Feelings gnawing, gnawing. I haven't even told my parents about my anxiety issues so ahahahaha perhaps a bit ambitious of me to bring this up as our first real srs bznz conversation.. Yeeesh, I just don't know how to talk to people.
... and I originally came here to post "lulz, people on Gaysir are crazy, THERE ARE GUYS SENDING ME MESSAGES ASKING IF I COULD PLEASE LEND THEM MY STILETTO HEELS- WHAT THE? I DON'T EVEN *_*???", but look what it evolved into. Ah well. Guess I needed to get it out somehow.
I also find it quite ironic that within five minutes of signing up, I received three sleazy messages from older men. What? I guess some things are just unavoidable on sites like this T_T; And I guess I've got myself to blame since I put up that I like both girls and guys (which is the truth after all). When browsing profiles, though, I've found that a lot of bisexual girls put up that they're only interested in girls. Perhaps to avoid icky messages from older men?
It's interesting to note that the site's userbase is 70% males and 30% females (people who don't associate with a gender aren't a part of their statistics, not sure why). It may well be the first time I'm on a social networking site where girls are in the minority. At least most of the guys will leave us alone 8D
I've put up a real account (though scarce on personal info), with my finger constantly hovering over the "delete my profile"-button. I'm obviously not looking for anything other than perhaps new acquaintances or friendships, so I think my profile will be largely ignored by most :P At the same time I'm curious (oh lol) about the people frequenting the site. I would like to get to know someone and have someone to talk to about sexual orientation issues. It's a part of myself I've been ignoring for far too long (and when I say "been ignoring" I mean in the sense that I've told myself it's pointless to even bring it up, seeing as I'm in a straight relationship and extremely happy with where I'm at). Still, I realise that there's a part of me that needs to be open about it. I lust on girls way too much to feel comfortable calling myself straight. But there's still this little voice in my head telling me that I don't really want people I know to find me on a site like that. Networking sites like this don't exactly have the best reputation, ahahhaha.
Really though this issue has been gnawing at me for quite some time. I guess most of you guys know that I'm bi, as I've hinted to it before... but I've never quite allowed myself to identify as such. After all I've never had any real experiences with another girl (whatever that means)... but I just know that this is how I'm wired. I've finally realised that I don't need to have those kind of experiences to call myself bi. I blame t.A.T.u. for making it impossible for me to tell others that I'm bi. Honestly, I figured this shit out right around the time when they first crawled into the international spotlight T_T; At first I thought, "omg yay awesome, it'll be easier to tell others! :D", but then suddenly being bi was the hip thing to do and people were hating on girls my age who called themselves bi (because how could they know if they'd never even been with a girl?). ahjgahjkg. To be honest I quite often find myself jokingly thinking that I'm a lesbian who happens to like Christian. XDDDDD. Nah I've been interested in other guys too like... uhm. Ewan McGregor and... Janove Ottesen. Yeah, I don't know. <,<;;; Christian is special ♥
Lol. My parents don't know, and I think it'll stay like that until.. I don't know. Something big happens. When I first took mum with me to see Mannen som elsket Yngve (The Man Who Loved Yngve), it was because I meant to tell her. But then in the end I couldn't, and fell back on the whole "but I'm with Christian, so it doesn't even matter~"-argument. Feelings gnawing, gnawing. I haven't even told my parents about my anxiety issues so ahahahaha perhaps a bit ambitious of me to bring this up as our first real srs bznz conversation.. Yeeesh, I just don't know how to talk to people.
... and I originally came here to post "lulz, people on Gaysir are crazy, THERE ARE GUYS SENDING ME MESSAGES ASKING IF I COULD PLEASE LEND THEM MY STILETTO HEELS- WHAT THE? I DON'T EVEN *_*???", but look what it evolved into. Ah well. Guess I needed to get it out somehow.