Spitefic: Backbone
Title: Backbone
Author: Lisaerin
Fandom: The Twilight Series
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,492
Inspiration: Chapter Six of Eclipse
Summary: Bella grows a backbone.
Author's Note: In Mervin's original Eclipse recap, she mentioned that she would like to write a spitefic where Bella destroyed the Porsche. I couldn't get around Alice's ability either, so I had Bella finally stand up to her. I hate Alice.
Deep breaths, Bella. Just take deep breaths. Count backwards from ten to one. I began counting under my breath. This wasn't helping me calm down. I clenched my hands into fists. I visualized myself taking a bat and destroying Alice's new car, like in that song Before he Cheats. A vindictive smile crossed my face as I imagined the bat smashing into the windshield. The fantasy ended as I remembered that Alice was a psychic vampire. She would see me make the decision to destroy her car, and then she would giggle and snatch the bat. I opened my mouth and then closed it. I wasn't sure if I could string together a coherent sentence; all I could think of were curse words.
" Edward bribed you to kidnap me with a Porsche?" Thankfully my voice came out flat and controlled, not whiny and petulant. Alice giggled.
"Yes. Isn't it great?" I stared at Alice incredulously. She could not be serious. She could not have just kidnapped her best friend for a Porsche. Alice's face did not hold any remorse. She honestly thought that this was okay. My resolve to stay calm broke. "Are you kidding me, Alice? You kidnapped me for a Porsche!"
Alice sighed and adopted a patronizing tone. "Bella, please don't overreact." My teeth ground together. Overreact? She had kidnapped me for a Porsche and she was acting like I was a child throwing a tantrum. Bitch. The word shocked me. I didn't think I could ever think this about my best friend. But best friend or not, Alice was clearly in the wrong. But of course she didn't see that and every attempt I made to convince her otherwise would be met with laughter. I don't know why I bothered continuing this conversation. " I don't believe you, Alice. I'm your best friend. You are rich. You could have bought that car for yourself. Jasper would have bought it for you. But you kidnapped me. What kind of shallow, selfish person does that?"
"Bella, Edward just wants you safe. We all do." She pouted at me. She freaking pouted at me. Did she think that she could give me puppy dog eyes and I would fall over backwards to please her? I winced as I remembered the time I had spent with Alice. It mostly involved shopping, and make-overs, and doing things that she enjoyed. Whenever I tried to protest Alice would give me a sad look and say that she didn't remember her human life. Crap. No wonder she thought she could get me to do whatever she wanted. I tried to reason with Alice one last time.
"But don't you think this is a little bit controlling? A tiny bit psychotic, maybe?"
"No." She sniffed. "You don't seem to grasp how dangerous a young werewolf can be. Especially when I can't see them. Edward has no way to know if you're safe. You shouldn't be so reckless."
Something in me snapped. I don't know if I had an epiphany, but I was done with this bullshit. My tone turned acidic. "Don't you dare talk to me about danger, Alice Cullen. I'm really sick of you guys using the excuse "werewolves are dangerous" to disguise the fact that Edward is jealous."
Alice's eyes widened. "How can you say that? Do you have any idea what a werewolf can do to you?" I thought about Emily's scars. "Actually, I'm pretty sure I do. Tell me this, Alice. Why am I allowed to hang out with vampires, but not werewolves?"
"That's completely different! We love you. We would never do anything to hurt you!"
A wry smile twisted my face. "Really, Alice? I seem to recall Edward telling me that he wanted to kill me. He's always moaning about how I'm so fragile and breakable. I was tortured by a vampire. Your husband attacked me on my birthday! Victoria was after me! Laurent nearly ate me and would have if the wolves hadn't shown up!" Alice's eyes narrowed at the mention of Jasper. "Don't you bring Jasper into this! It wasn't his fault!"
I laughed humorlessly. "He's a vampire, Alice. I don't blame him for wanting blood. My point is that I have been in danger when I'm with vampires, and you have no problem being around me. I'm done, Alice. Jake's probably wondering where I am." Alice's face dropped. Good grief, was she really going to use puppy dog eyes on me again? Did she not hear a word I had just said. Alice looked down. " I never had a best friend before, Bella. I don't want anything to happen to you. I thought you were my best friend. Now I see it was all just words."
"Spare me the pity party, Alice. So you don't remember your human life. I'm very sorry that you did not get to paint toenails and giggle about boys, because you seem to think that's all girls do. I am sick of you forcing me to go shopping and giving me makeovers, even though I have told you a thousand times I don't like it. Whenever I tell you what I want, you either patronize me or guilt-trip me. I don't know what the hell you think friendship is, but it is not bullying someone into doing what you want and kidnapping them. You've never been a friend to me, Alice. Today proves it."
"You've changed, Bella."
"Yeah, I guess I have. I think that was when your brother left me in the middle of the forest and you all abandoned me. I know that Edward told you guys not to contact me, but really. Since when was he the leader of your coven? If we were such good friends you would have tried to check up on me. But the only time you tried to do that was when you thought I had died. Where were you when I needed you? That "dangerous young werewolf" was the one to put me back together. He's a better friend than you will ever be. He treats me with respect and does not force me to do anything. Now I'm going to call Jake and explain why I am not spending the weekend with him. I'm going to ask him to come and get me, and you will not interfere, otherwise I will have my father arrest you for kidnapping.
"I don't understand what's gotten into you, Bella. You're overreacting. Come on, I'll give you a pedicure." I would rather argue with a three-year old than try to convince Alice that she was in the wrong. I turned to go into the house. Then I thought of something else to say. "I'm done. I'm through with everyone manipulating me. Tell Edward that he is not to go near me. He is not allowed in my room, he is not allowed to call me, nothing! You are going to keep your visions to yourself. You can find a new Barbie Doll. I was stupid to let you guys manipulate me for so long, but it ends now." That being said, I marched into the house. My heart was racing. I had never told off Alice before; I would never dream of yelling at my best friend. I don't know what happened to rip the blindfold off, but I was glad. I had been such a fool. As I thought about how I had been acting, I blushed. I had allowed Edward and Alice to manipulate me. Whenever I told Edward what I wanted, he would simply dazzle me. Alice was no better. How could I have been so weak-minded?
I shook my head. I shouldn't dwell on my mistakes; I should fix them. If Edward wanted a relationship with me, then he would have to learn to listen to me. I should not be sneaking around to see my best friend. Next, I needed to do some major groveling. I would apologize to Jessica about being such a bitch and that creepy guy fiasco when we went to the movies. I would apologize to Charlie. I winced at how selfish I had been. So my controlling boyfriend of a few months dumped me. Renee had dumped Charlie and taken me, but Charlie didn't fall apart. He got a job and earned the respect of the town. Jake was there for me and I threw him away like garbage. Yet he still wanted to talk to me. Granted, that could be because he loved me, but I was just grateful he was talking to me. I had such wonderful friends and family and I took them all for granted. Well, that was going to end. I was not the naive girl Edward had left behind. I would be better. I picked up the phone and dialed Jake's number. "Jake? It's Bella. Listen, I need your help. I ran into a little trouble with the Cullens."
Author: Lisaerin
Fandom: The Twilight Series
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,492
Inspiration: Chapter Six of Eclipse
Summary: Bella grows a backbone.
Author's Note: In Mervin's original Eclipse recap, she mentioned that she would like to write a spitefic where Bella destroyed the Porsche. I couldn't get around Alice's ability either, so I had Bella finally stand up to her. I hate Alice.
Deep breaths, Bella. Just take deep breaths. Count backwards from ten to one. I began counting under my breath. This wasn't helping me calm down. I clenched my hands into fists. I visualized myself taking a bat and destroying Alice's new car, like in that song Before he Cheats. A vindictive smile crossed my face as I imagined the bat smashing into the windshield. The fantasy ended as I remembered that Alice was a psychic vampire. She would see me make the decision to destroy her car, and then she would giggle and snatch the bat. I opened my mouth and then closed it. I wasn't sure if I could string together a coherent sentence; all I could think of were curse words.
" Edward bribed you to kidnap me with a Porsche?" Thankfully my voice came out flat and controlled, not whiny and petulant. Alice giggled.
"Yes. Isn't it great?" I stared at Alice incredulously. She could not be serious. She could not have just kidnapped her best friend for a Porsche. Alice's face did not hold any remorse. She honestly thought that this was okay. My resolve to stay calm broke. "Are you kidding me, Alice? You kidnapped me for a Porsche!"
Alice sighed and adopted a patronizing tone. "Bella, please don't overreact." My teeth ground together. Overreact? She had kidnapped me for a Porsche and she was acting like I was a child throwing a tantrum. Bitch. The word shocked me. I didn't think I could ever think this about my best friend. But best friend or not, Alice was clearly in the wrong. But of course she didn't see that and every attempt I made to convince her otherwise would be met with laughter. I don't know why I bothered continuing this conversation. " I don't believe you, Alice. I'm your best friend. You are rich. You could have bought that car for yourself. Jasper would have bought it for you. But you kidnapped me. What kind of shallow, selfish person does that?"
"Bella, Edward just wants you safe. We all do." She pouted at me. She freaking pouted at me. Did she think that she could give me puppy dog eyes and I would fall over backwards to please her? I winced as I remembered the time I had spent with Alice. It mostly involved shopping, and make-overs, and doing things that she enjoyed. Whenever I tried to protest Alice would give me a sad look and say that she didn't remember her human life. Crap. No wonder she thought she could get me to do whatever she wanted. I tried to reason with Alice one last time.
"But don't you think this is a little bit controlling? A tiny bit psychotic, maybe?"
"No." She sniffed. "You don't seem to grasp how dangerous a young werewolf can be. Especially when I can't see them. Edward has no way to know if you're safe. You shouldn't be so reckless."
Something in me snapped. I don't know if I had an epiphany, but I was done with this bullshit. My tone turned acidic. "Don't you dare talk to me about danger, Alice Cullen. I'm really sick of you guys using the excuse "werewolves are dangerous" to disguise the fact that Edward is jealous."
Alice's eyes widened. "How can you say that? Do you have any idea what a werewolf can do to you?" I thought about Emily's scars. "Actually, I'm pretty sure I do. Tell me this, Alice. Why am I allowed to hang out with vampires, but not werewolves?"
"That's completely different! We love you. We would never do anything to hurt you!"
A wry smile twisted my face. "Really, Alice? I seem to recall Edward telling me that he wanted to kill me. He's always moaning about how I'm so fragile and breakable. I was tortured by a vampire. Your husband attacked me on my birthday! Victoria was after me! Laurent nearly ate me and would have if the wolves hadn't shown up!" Alice's eyes narrowed at the mention of Jasper. "Don't you bring Jasper into this! It wasn't his fault!"
I laughed humorlessly. "He's a vampire, Alice. I don't blame him for wanting blood. My point is that I have been in danger when I'm with vampires, and you have no problem being around me. I'm done, Alice. Jake's probably wondering where I am." Alice's face dropped. Good grief, was she really going to use puppy dog eyes on me again? Did she not hear a word I had just said. Alice looked down. " I never had a best friend before, Bella. I don't want anything to happen to you. I thought you were my best friend. Now I see it was all just words."
"Spare me the pity party, Alice. So you don't remember your human life. I'm very sorry that you did not get to paint toenails and giggle about boys, because you seem to think that's all girls do. I am sick of you forcing me to go shopping and giving me makeovers, even though I have told you a thousand times I don't like it. Whenever I tell you what I want, you either patronize me or guilt-trip me. I don't know what the hell you think friendship is, but it is not bullying someone into doing what you want and kidnapping them. You've never been a friend to me, Alice. Today proves it."
"You've changed, Bella."
"Yeah, I guess I have. I think that was when your brother left me in the middle of the forest and you all abandoned me. I know that Edward told you guys not to contact me, but really. Since when was he the leader of your coven? If we were such good friends you would have tried to check up on me. But the only time you tried to do that was when you thought I had died. Where were you when I needed you? That "dangerous young werewolf" was the one to put me back together. He's a better friend than you will ever be. He treats me with respect and does not force me to do anything. Now I'm going to call Jake and explain why I am not spending the weekend with him. I'm going to ask him to come and get me, and you will not interfere, otherwise I will have my father arrest you for kidnapping.
"I don't understand what's gotten into you, Bella. You're overreacting. Come on, I'll give you a pedicure." I would rather argue with a three-year old than try to convince Alice that she was in the wrong. I turned to go into the house. Then I thought of something else to say. "I'm done. I'm through with everyone manipulating me. Tell Edward that he is not to go near me. He is not allowed in my room, he is not allowed to call me, nothing! You are going to keep your visions to yourself. You can find a new Barbie Doll. I was stupid to let you guys manipulate me for so long, but it ends now." That being said, I marched into the house. My heart was racing. I had never told off Alice before; I would never dream of yelling at my best friend. I don't know what happened to rip the blindfold off, but I was glad. I had been such a fool. As I thought about how I had been acting, I blushed. I had allowed Edward and Alice to manipulate me. Whenever I told Edward what I wanted, he would simply dazzle me. Alice was no better. How could I have been so weak-minded?
I shook my head. I shouldn't dwell on my mistakes; I should fix them. If Edward wanted a relationship with me, then he would have to learn to listen to me. I should not be sneaking around to see my best friend. Next, I needed to do some major groveling. I would apologize to Jessica about being such a bitch and that creepy guy fiasco when we went to the movies. I would apologize to Charlie. I winced at how selfish I had been. So my controlling boyfriend of a few months dumped me. Renee had dumped Charlie and taken me, but Charlie didn't fall apart. He got a job and earned the respect of the town. Jake was there for me and I threw him away like garbage. Yet he still wanted to talk to me. Granted, that could be because he loved me, but I was just grateful he was talking to me. I had such wonderful friends and family and I took them all for granted. Well, that was going to end. I was not the naive girl Edward had left behind. I would be better. I picked up the phone and dialed Jake's number. "Jake? It's Bella. Listen, I need your help. I ran into a little trouble with the Cullens."