And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away...
Long before the Army guys left for afghanistan, Jodi and I had planned on getting trashed the night they left. To help us cope and get over them leaving. So that we wouldn't feel the pain quite as much. Well, Thursday night we did that. I got completely trashed. And Jodi was drunk. We went to Zanzibar with Patty, Ashleigh, Crissy, and Aji. We danced and partied for quite some time. We came home and Jodi and Ashleigh put me to bed. Well, I started balling because of the guys. I missed them so much and had so many fears about them being gone. Like their safety, that they would lose contact with us, and the biggest one...that when they came back they would want nothing to do with us. I was a mess. We finally got me to stop sobbing and I went to sleep. Woke up the next morning hung over and sick with a cold. What a combo. Jodi and I both got a cold. No more drunk little kisses for us. So Friday I got a call from Alan from Pakistan. Which helped my fears a tiny bit. But not much. Time can only tell for the other ones. You know? Anyways, Saturday Jodi, Kait and I moved stuff into storage with my parents, looked at puppies, and went to dinner with my folks. Jodi and I both felt like shit and were dead practially. Went to bed early on Saturday night and then spent Easter at my parents place with Jodi, Kait, Maureen, Dave, Niki, Shancy, Patty and Ashleigh. It was fun and there was tons of good food...despite the fact that Jodi and I were still sick as all hell. Got an e-mail from Alan in Afghanistan. He says it's not so bad. But he's only been there a few days. Went to class this morning even though I still feel like I'm dying. Saw my english professor and told her I was sick so she let me miss class. Came back and slept for a few hours. Feeling a little better but not that great...Gonna lay low for the next couple days. That's really it. Jodi and I both keep having dreams about the guys. Nothing in particular. Just dreams with them in them. We've both had one every night since they left. Kinda weird. I guess maybe we just miss them so much and the only way we really get to "see" them anymore is in our dreams. Who knows. All I know is that I miss them so much, I'm always thinking about them even when I try not too....