so much sadness engulfing me
I am sick of freakin work. I took my law midterm in total tears yesterday and I think I may have actually failed it, for real. I will just have to make sure I do really well on the take home part, my next paper and the final, so as to keep my average up. I took it just minutes after saying goodbye to Kelley and Georgia (Lynne was driving them to the airport) and goodbye to Lynne. I just decided I can't be around her while she self destructs anymore, but its so hard, since she is so close to me and I dont have anyone else out here. Not anyone at all.
I said goodbye and she clung onto me like a toddler to his mom on the first day of preschool. We were on a corner downtown near my school and she was yelling for me to "please come back, please dont leave me, please meghan I love you so much I cant not have you in my life"... it was terrible.
So I couldnt help but not cry. 3 years of my life standing there on a corner, looking cute and needing me- yet I wasnt giving in. And now today, as I sit here doing my take home law midterm I am thinking about her and want to talk to her so bad. I want her to be here so I can put mango madness on her feet and knees and she can rub my back while we hold eachother.
But I can't. She is not that Lynne anymore. She is colder now, angry and sometimes very mean to me. *sigh* I will see her on November 22 when we fly home together for Thanksgiving.
And thats that. The end.
I said goodbye and she clung onto me like a toddler to his mom on the first day of preschool. We were on a corner downtown near my school and she was yelling for me to "please come back, please dont leave me, please meghan I love you so much I cant not have you in my life"... it was terrible.
So I couldnt help but not cry. 3 years of my life standing there on a corner, looking cute and needing me- yet I wasnt giving in. And now today, as I sit here doing my take home law midterm I am thinking about her and want to talk to her so bad. I want her to be here so I can put mango madness on her feet and knees and she can rub my back while we hold eachother.
But I can't. She is not that Lynne anymore. She is colder now, angry and sometimes very mean to me. *sigh* I will see her on November 22 when we fly home together for Thanksgiving.
And thats that. The end.