barenaked me
2pm on friday.
Officially fall now, I crave the cold weather and crunchy leaves.
I am all moved into the apartment, did I tell you all that yet?
Lynne and I broke up and I had to move out. I have only been in freakin Chicago for 3 months and my entire life changes before I can even blink. I lose the girl I love more than I can even believe, and then I lose the one place here that finally felt like home, our apartment.
Now I live in centipede heaven. A cute enough studio in Uptown... though it is in the basement. Let's hope I dont get flooded, shall we?
Lynne went home yesterday (home to Boston) and I got to tell ya'll... I have never missed her so much in 3 years- even when I was in another part of the world or we were fighting. KNowing that she is at home, visiting MY family, hugging my niece and laughing with my mom is one of the most painful things I have ever experienced. I am not mad that she gets to be there and see them, I am just sad that I can't be there too. Actually- I probably could have gone home, financially I could have done it, but I just kept telling myself that if I went back to Boston I am not sure I would be strong enough to come back to Chicago.
I bought my ticket home for thanksgiving. November will come fast, won't it? I think so.
I have decided to refocus my energies on taking care of me. I have to learn that its okay to take care of myself, and its okay to let Lynne take care of herself, she doesnt need me to be her mom.
We both started back on the Weight Watchers band wagon. Since I started in January I have lost 46 lbs... pretty good I think, but I still have a ways to go.
Wish me luck... I could use some good thoughts :)
Officially fall now, I crave the cold weather and crunchy leaves.
I am all moved into the apartment, did I tell you all that yet?
Lynne and I broke up and I had to move out. I have only been in freakin Chicago for 3 months and my entire life changes before I can even blink. I lose the girl I love more than I can even believe, and then I lose the one place here that finally felt like home, our apartment.
Now I live in centipede heaven. A cute enough studio in Uptown... though it is in the basement. Let's hope I dont get flooded, shall we?
Lynne went home yesterday (home to Boston) and I got to tell ya'll... I have never missed her so much in 3 years- even when I was in another part of the world or we were fighting. KNowing that she is at home, visiting MY family, hugging my niece and laughing with my mom is one of the most painful things I have ever experienced. I am not mad that she gets to be there and see them, I am just sad that I can't be there too. Actually- I probably could have gone home, financially I could have done it, but I just kept telling myself that if I went back to Boston I am not sure I would be strong enough to come back to Chicago.
I bought my ticket home for thanksgiving. November will come fast, won't it? I think so.
I have decided to refocus my energies on taking care of me. I have to learn that its okay to take care of myself, and its okay to let Lynne take care of herself, she doesnt need me to be her mom.
We both started back on the Weight Watchers band wagon. Since I started in January I have lost 46 lbs... pretty good I think, but I still have a ways to go.
Wish me luck... I could use some good thoughts :)