im freaking out
This is pathetic. We've been away from each other for an hour and were already having withdrawal. lol. Were shootin for a whole week together...this is night three..96hrs. Bec nd i already basically live there now..we have a cot.
My mom's watching big brother all stars. I used to be freaking OBSESSED witht that show and all the cool people are on now but im leaving. Sdlkfj
I agree w. lauren's current away messege. "welp. its been a week. and it seems everyone has moved on. " I don't get it, i really don't. How can one week separate us just like that. I'm hanging out w. dif people, alexis is no where to be found hanging out w. dif people, sam just got back today, laur not back yesterday, im freaking out for no aparent reason and i MISS THEM!! GAH! I feel like im still on vactaion cause i seriously have NOT been home, at all. Ahhh i need to go to becaw. I need a pretty peaceful place where i can just SCREAM! and im in a REALLY weird mood right now but im sure people would think screaming at becaw(a kinda public place) would be weird. OMG i wanna go running. Wow..jeez. What is wrong with me? I hate running. Jeezus i miss berea and IM HERE RIGHT NOW!!. I miss walking around w. lauren in the pouring rain. I miss castle playground. I miss my girls. I miss brad. I miss hanging out w. kristen and i hate how i always feel like something is just not right between us. I miss doing stupid things to people i DON'T EVEN KNOW just bc it's fucking FUN!!! I miss the park and crybaby bridge and driving aimlessly just singing and movie nights and just laughing histerically w. lauren, sam and alexis. I miss going to brads late at night pranking people and just hanging out. I miss the way things USED to be with all my friends. How everyone liked EVERYONE and no one talked about ANYONE and we all just loved each other and things were OKAY! I hate when people tell me the same things OVER AND OVER AGAIN when FRANKLY we DISCUSED the fucking "im friends with you to keep you away from this person" AWHILE AGOOOO!!!!! I miss RJ(i hope he's alive btw..he's in mexico, camping). I miss jess. I miss everyone from drama and cast partys. I miss having fun ALL THE TIME and NOT worrying about stupid stuff that is POINTLESS! WE ONLY LIVE ONCE PEOPLE SHUT THE FUCK UP AND HAVE FUN!! If you have a problem with someone, TELL THEM OR ELSE THEY WILL NEVER KNOW AND THINGS WILL NEVER BE SOLVED. The longer you wait the WORSE it gets gawd damnit!! I'm SO SICK OF DRAMA RIGHT NOW! I seriously can't even deal with it im done with everything i CAN'TTAKE IT ANYMORE! It's making me SICK TO MY STOMACH! Everything is getting in my way, everything is slowing me down, everyone has some type of beef with everyone and im getting SO FED UP WITH IT! Just STOP right now with everything. STOP the shit, STOP the DRAMA! JUST FUCKING STOPPPP!!!!!!!! I'm DONE. THROUGH. FINISHED! Once i feel drama is coming, im GONE, im LEAVING! I don't want it, i can't deal with it. It's KILLING me physically, mentally, emotionaly. AH! OMGGG! I wanna go bike riding...i want life to be GOOD! I fucking HATE that im having problems with my BEST friends when i LOVE them to DEATH! I HATE fighting. I HATE when everything's not right. THIS NEEDS TO STOP!! LIfe needs to be BETTER! SUMMER is almost over! I WANT TO HAVE DRAMA FREE FUN!!
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
My mom's watching big brother all stars. I used to be freaking OBSESSED witht that show and all the cool people are on now but im leaving. Sdlkfj
I agree w. lauren's current away messege. "welp. its been a week. and it seems everyone has moved on. " I don't get it, i really don't. How can one week separate us just like that. I'm hanging out w. dif people, alexis is no where to be found hanging out w. dif people, sam just got back today, laur not back yesterday, im freaking out for no aparent reason and i MISS THEM!! GAH! I feel like im still on vactaion cause i seriously have NOT been home, at all. Ahhh i need to go to becaw. I need a pretty peaceful place where i can just SCREAM! and im in a REALLY weird mood right now but im sure people would think screaming at becaw(a kinda public place) would be weird. OMG i wanna go running. Wow..jeez. What is wrong with me? I hate running. Jeezus i miss berea and IM HERE RIGHT NOW!!. I miss walking around w. lauren in the pouring rain. I miss castle playground. I miss my girls. I miss brad. I miss hanging out w. kristen and i hate how i always feel like something is just not right between us. I miss doing stupid things to people i DON'T EVEN KNOW just bc it's fucking FUN!!! I miss the park and crybaby bridge and driving aimlessly just singing and movie nights and just laughing histerically w. lauren, sam and alexis. I miss going to brads late at night pranking people and just hanging out. I miss the way things USED to be with all my friends. How everyone liked EVERYONE and no one talked about ANYONE and we all just loved each other and things were OKAY! I hate when people tell me the same things OVER AND OVER AGAIN when FRANKLY we DISCUSED the fucking "im friends with you to keep you away from this person" AWHILE AGOOOO!!!!! I miss RJ(i hope he's alive btw..he's in mexico, camping). I miss jess. I miss everyone from drama and cast partys. I miss having fun ALL THE TIME and NOT worrying about stupid stuff that is POINTLESS! WE ONLY LIVE ONCE PEOPLE SHUT THE FUCK UP AND HAVE FUN!! If you have a problem with someone, TELL THEM OR ELSE THEY WILL NEVER KNOW AND THINGS WILL NEVER BE SOLVED. The longer you wait the WORSE it gets gawd damnit!! I'm SO SICK OF DRAMA RIGHT NOW! I seriously can't even deal with it im done with everything i CAN'TTAKE IT ANYMORE! It's making me SICK TO MY STOMACH! Everything is getting in my way, everything is slowing me down, everyone has some type of beef with everyone and im getting SO FED UP WITH IT! Just STOP right now with everything. STOP the shit, STOP the DRAMA! JUST FUCKING STOPPPP!!!!!!!! I'm DONE. THROUGH. FINISHED! Once i feel drama is coming, im GONE, im LEAVING! I don't want it, i can't deal with it. It's KILLING me physically, mentally, emotionaly. AH! OMGGG! I wanna go bike riding...i want life to be GOOD! I fucking HATE that im having problems with my BEST friends when i LOVE them to DEATH! I HATE fighting. I HATE when everything's not right. THIS NEEDS TO STOP!! LIfe needs to be BETTER! SUMMER is almost over! I WANT TO HAVE DRAMA FREE FUN!!
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!