Another solely Kingdom Hearts entry
Because it's freaking late and I accidentally got stuck beating the game. (I honestly didn't mean to, I turned it on around 11 to run a few missions and maybe complete a few more days and then - well, whatever, I kind of cover this under the cut.)
Yyyyep, Saïx is angry.
Axel, Xigbar, and Xion? Wow, that is unlikely. …Xion with her hood up, even.
Pff, I go out for strolls with Xibgar ALL THE TIME. He also trolls me. It can't be that special. XP
S'UP SAÏX I DON'T WANT MY OWN DAMN MISSION.
AND YES, BY THE WAY, I EVIDENTLY DO NEED AXEL TO WALK ME EVERYWHERE, SINCE YOU'RE EVIDENTLY TRYING TO GET ME (OR XION. BY THE OTHER'S HAND) KILLED.
ROXAS JUST GO KILL HIM. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
AND NO YOU AREN'T GOING TO REMEMBER YESTERDAY BUT WRITING IT DOWN PROBABLY WON'T DO ANY GOOD, EITHER, WILL IT.
UGH. UGH. I AM GOING TO GO BE HYSTERICAL SOMEWHERE ELSE NOW
See, since I can't actually save until the next day after any scenes that happen in the morning, you got a bit more AAAAUGH from yesterday's events. I will try to stop rage-capsing now. (Rage-capsing is unusual for me! Normally my capslock is just for adding ridiculousness and not actually, you know, expressing loud noises, or complete horror. …Or rage. Though there's been a fair bit of it this game, hasn't there? There's more at the bottom, too!) (So, uh, sorry to those of you who read ALL THE ALLCAPS as screaming. It is generally not meant as such, but I don't think you'd appreciate pages and pages of italicized and/or bolded text.)
… awww, look at me going out of my way to avoid plot progression. THIS IS FAMILIAR TERRITORY. Only instead of doing missions, I'm redoing missions. On Challenge mode! Zack, you and Roxas and maybe Xion should all get together sometime and commiserate.
Okay really no enough of this.
…HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ELIMINATE SIX GIANT HEARTLESS WHEN I AM AFRAID TO FIGHT THEM BECAUSE WHAT IF THEY AREN'T REALLY HEARTLESS?
Oh, Xigbar and Xion are fighting? Why? … And, uh. Isn't that - it's the kid who looks like Roxas but isn't, I don't remember what his name is - the guy from Birth by Sleep?
How strange. Why does Xigbar see him?
What the hell is going on now, Xion? What are you doing?
TELL US GODDAMNIT
WHAT. WHO DOES SHE LOOK LIKE NOW. ASDHFJKLADSN
(Though, uh, I'm kind of laughing at Xigbar just sprawled out on the ground like that. Bleaaaahh fallen over.)
AAAAUGH ANOTHER ORCUS. OR. THE FIRST ONE I GUESS. I am … almost kind of surprised? The … not-Orcus had way fewer hit points than an Invisible and in retrospect I wondered if maybe that was supposed to be a tip-off that something was weird and wrong, but this one has the same comparatively small amount. So I guess they just have less.
HEY, POWERED ARMOR! GUESS WHO'S USING AN AWESOME AERIAL COMBO KEYBLADE TODAY. YES, this is gonna go a whole lot faster than it did at the Coliseum.
p.s. you were only scary the first time I fought one of your incarnations. I mean, back in Traverse Town in the first game.
Ew, Veil Lizard. Really, they aren't so bad now, I just have terrible, terrible memories of that first one way back when. (And worse ones of watching my brother try to fight it, hah. He went for weak magic, strong attack, and I went for strong defense, weak attack, so I won a lot of fights simply by being a little better at outlasting the stuff I was slowly chipping away at. There was also a notable difference in our magic attack power, which actually surprised us both. 'Woah! It does actually make a difference?!' Oh, man, we died so much back then…)
(… she says, as if to imply she does not still die all the time now. No, no, now the difference is that I save most of my dying for the common enemies running around or because I'm all like LIMIT BREAK WHOO I CAN SURVIVE ONE MORE HIT - oops.)
… man, the Dustflier is evil and hard. I'll come back for him later.
ROXAS, XION ISN'T COMING BACK. Sorry. :(
… Axel. Axel. He can't get his eyes checked, he only has one. Unless he wears the eyepatch 'cause he thinks it's cool, which, okay, I'm not sure I'd put that past him.
Well, whoopee for you, Saïx, I don't exactly care that you 'can't use me' it's your own damn fault, anyway. Piss off.
Xigbar, were you even really conscious at that point? It looked to me like she pretty well KO'd you, man.
AXEL IT WAS OBVIOUSLY NOT NOTHING ALL YOU'RE DOING IT STANDING AROUND GOING "…………." AND LOOKING GUILTY. COME ON. Even Roxas isn't that clueless!
THANK YOU, GEEZ, I know this is probably hard but ugh, everyone keeping it a secret is only getting us farther into this mess!
(I do wonder how they even went about designing her, though, I mean. Really. It's very tricky…)
You can't get angry with him for not understand, no one's said a damn thing this entire time, of course he's not going to get it! (… Now, Axel doesn't actually seem to be getting angry, but uh. BUT SHUT UP.) SERIOUSLY, MAN, YOU HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT DIRECTLY. Not for me, 'cause I catch on a lot faster than your little idiot friend. Well. SORT OF FOR ME, because I am all distressed that he is all angry and hating everything and everyone and THERE ARE ONLY LIKE 5 DAYS LEFT AND THERE ISN'T TIME FOR THAT.
So, wait, why are we skulking around Beast's Castle, Riku? I'm not sure I follow. Keeping an eye on the Princesses of Heart, maybe?
(SHE'S IN THE MANSION, XION. I WANT TO SAY "DON'T GO! NO!" BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE TO AND THIS IS YOUR DECISION BUT IT STILL MAKES ME SAD.)
AAAAA DAY 354
… I'll, uh. I'll stop starting every new day with a scream now. OR I'LL TRY TO, ANYWAY.
XEMNAS, YOU HAVEN'T FALLEN OFF THAT STUPID CHAIR AND DIED YET. GET TO IT.
(orraaaaaaaange)
OH YOU DID NOT JUST CALL HER AN IT UGH I HATE YOU.
… go back to sleep, Demyx.
(ORRRAAAAAAANGE seriously, due to the pixilation, half the time he doesn't even appear to have pupils. IT'S JUST ALL ORANGE. EVERYWHERE.)
How many Replicas did they have at Castle Oblivion, anyway? We only know about the two, I think?
Saïx, I would dearly love to drop-kick you right now.
I'm with Xigbar. We're not going to be able to sweep it all up and they are deluding themselves. IT ENDS BADLY FOR EVERYONE. WAY TO GO, GUYS. WAY. TO. GO.
SAÏX. >:|
Totally random aside here, but sometimes I find myself wondering a lot about their heights. I mean, all the other members of Organization XIII are significantly taller than Roxas and Xion (who are probably, you know, about as tall as Sora is). And things are about the same in regards to Sora and the Disney / Final Fantasy characters. So, I mean… Sora's … 14 in the first game, I think? 15 in the second. We know the heights of the Final Fantasy characters, assuming they're stuck with the ones they had in their original games. So Squall's something like 5'8" and Yuffie and Aerith are both on the low end of 5' but it never seems to match up somehow. I DON'T KNOW. Everyone's drawn to a different scale or something. XD I mean, it looks like Axel's got at least a foot on Roxas (I admit, their sticking-up hairstyles make it a bit hard to judge), but I find it hard to believe the other Nobodies are all giants, so they're probably not all 7 feet tall or anything, which puts Roxas at, what, 4, 5 feet tall? I guess he just hasn't hit his growth spurt yet, but it's still something I've found myself wondering about, probably more so than anyone has any right to.
SO ANYWAY WHERE WERE WE? Oh, right, Axel was trying to explain about Xion being a sponge (they say mirror, but that doesn't really fit, you know? She doesn't just reflect him, she's actively leeching off him. … Which makes it sound kind of vampire-y, doesn't it, but it's not like she was doing it on purpose…) to Roxas.
ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTION, AXEL.
… OR WALK OFF, NO, IT'S COOL.
NOOoooo, Roxas, he's trying to protect you (AND IT'S NOT WORKING REAL WELL, AND IT WILL END BADLY, BUT, UH), don't not trust him!
I do not want to talk to you, Saïx. I am quite unhappy with you. RARARAR.
"Place the device"… I DON'T WANT TO. PLACE IT YOURSELF. REBELLION!!!
Because this is something everyone cares about, ever since the second Trick Monkey flip-footed me, I have always opened boxes by standing directly in front of them and guarding immediately after hitting Examine.
Sometimes it pays off, but mostly it makes me look twitchy and ridiculous in front of my teammates, whenever one is present.
WHAT DOES THE DEVICE DO? Oh, nothing good, I'm certain… Last time they references "devices" I went to Halloween Town and then nearly killed / got killed by Xion, so, uh. STOP HELPING THEM DESTROY YOU, DAMN IT, ROXAS. D:
Um. Um. Um. Well. In your defense, Roxas! What else could you do? You don't really know much about… anything. Not that I don't agree that maybe you shouldn't be just blindly going along, but don't be too hard on yourself.
… You are the only person who doesn't know. :(
Axel is still your friend!
… MICKEY. Wow, we don't see you often. Oh, relax, it's just Riku. I guess he dropped his blindfold somewhere or something. Ah, no, there it is. (It's kind of weird how Mickey's sprite is always all :) so his little dialogue box icon is going D:! while he's still got that huge, kind of freaky grin on his face… It's a bit incongruous.)
Oh, that's why Xion is a girl / who looks kinda like Kairi! … REALLY KIND OF OBVIOUS IN RETROSPECT.
(HE LIES, RIKU. HE LIIIIESSSS. HE ONLY SHOWS UP TO SORA AND COMPANY, LIKE, THREE TIMES IN THE GAME. Actually, I guess he does rescue you during the Xaldin fight.)
AAAAAA DAY 355 right, I said I'd stop that.
No one made you, Roxas, he just didn't want you to be upset. IT BACKFIRED MISERABLY, TO NO ONE'S SURPRISE. GOD, THIS IS ALL GOING TO HELL SO, SO FAST.
Go beat some answers out of him. DO IT.
Wait, crap. Is 358 the number of days Roxas is in the Organization, or the number of days he exists, or the number of days he exists outside DiZ's little digital town? Because, uh, if it's either of the latter, I'm probably running away soon. Like, TODAY soon.
Wow, only Axel's here today. GOOD RIDDANCE, I didn't feel like talking to Saïx, anyway.
…MOOGLE FRIEND, I AM SCARED OF THE FUTURE. :< Sell me gear to make me feel better.
YAY AWKWARD SILENCE… AXEL, THIS SITUATION IS STILL SALVAGEABLE PLEASE USE WORDS INSTEAD OF ELLIPSES.
AXEL. WORDS.
Swear to god, if my roommate weren't asleep, I'd be yelling at you just like Roxas is. AUGH, YOU IDIOT!
I AM GOING TO CRY, YOU IDIOTS ARE BREAKING MY DAMN HEART.
… wow, these Dusks are really weak compared to the others I've fought so far.
Oh. Saïx wasn't in the Grey Area because he's lurking down here. Fabulous.
I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T ACCEPT RESIGNATIONS. YOU WANTED ME GONE, ANYWAY. BLARGH!
That's right, Roxas, you tell him!
Ahaha oh crap, this won't end pretty.
… or, uh. Never mind. I guess he buffs up sometime between now and when Sora fights him later? Or maybe I'm just remembering that fight as being a little harder than it was.
SEEN THIS BEFORE
ONLY NOW IT'S EVEN SADDER. AXEL, YOU UTTER … STUPID. STUPID.
FFFFFFF 356
…Hey, it's not screaming, okay?
Naminé tells it like it is. I'm so glad someone around here will. ;_; We can always count on her, even if it is unpleasant to hear!
Oh, it'll be as if she never existed at all. Xion…! D: She's very brave, really.
But, Xion… if you never existed, they won't remember promising you they'll look after him. But you probably know that already, huh? (… wibbly wobbly timey wimey…?)
DiZ GO AWAY you always tick me off. (IT IS BECAUSE YOU'RE A JERK.)
What's she planning…? She knows he'll win, and… okay honestly I have a terrible suspicion I know what she's planning but I don't like it so I'm choosing to ignore it. LALALA WILLFUL IGNORANCE.
…Xemnas, I see you still haven't fallen off your silly chair to your death.
357
D: I'm not ready…
(Well, I can always save it for tomorrow. Which is the plan! whee.)
MORE D: that stupid clock tower.
Awww, Moogle friend! You came after m---y wallet! Awww. I'm touched, regardless.
Oh, Xion, you came and you brought ice cream. This won't go well, will it.
Um. Hi, now Sora-look-alike.
OH GOD SHE IS NO NO NO STOP IT
( … the hell? Weird outfit.)
I TOLD YOU THOSE DEVICES WERE BAD NEWS AND YOU DIDN'T LISTEN TO ME. How many are there? At least two.
I don't want to fight! D: I understand why I have to (EVEN IF ROXAS DOESN'T, UGH, THIS POOD KID), but I like Xion! I don't want to have to kill her and make her disappear!
Halloween town… at least three of them, then.
Music change. Just the three, then?
Back to Twilight Town. I DON'T WANT TO. D:
… if I die, do I restart at the very beginning, or from the most recent stage? (let's not find out…)
Also, damnit, I'm sad she didn't offer him any answers, either. Roxas, your life is the most unfair thing ever.
Heh. Each of these stages, I've let her have the first strike. That's oddly sentimental of me. (It wasn't even intentional, I just… noticed I was doing it.)
WAAAAH XION I'M SORRY. I know this is what you wanted, but I AM STILL SO, SO SORRY.
Oh god Dx SHE IS SHATTERING IN SLOW MOTION DAMN MY EYES AND THEIR LEAKING Xionnnnnn D: D:
ROXAS LEFT HIM THE WINNER ICE CREAM STICK :((((((
Oh, you know what, Xemnas? Fuck you. YOU WANTED HIM GONE, YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM BACK NOW THAT YOU SUDDENLY NEED HIM AGAIN 'CAUSE YOUR PLAN BACKFIRED IN A MANNER THAT IS ONLY HILARIOUS FOR HOW BADLY IT SCREWED YOU OVER (WAY TO GO, XION). Seriously. Just. I didn't like you, anyway, you were always the one Organization member I never really felt bad for at all, and this game is just DRIVING THAT POINT HOME. You are a bastard.
So were Ansem (Seeker of Darkness, not DiZ, though DiZ? Also kind of a bastard. Though I guess he wasn't always. But I've never met that guy, so I just spend a lot of time snarling at him) and (presumably) the original Xehanort, so at least you come by it honestly, I guess.
(I AM UPSET AND IT IS COMING OUT AS ANGER)
END OF DAYS NOW. WAAAH ;___;
SWARM OF NEOSHADOWS. I REMEMBER THIS FROM THE SECRET ENDING OF THE FIRST GAME. Riku's gonna show up and kick my ass soon, isn't he. Oof. … wait, I don't get to save, do I? Blargh! WHY HAVE YOU TRAPPED ME INTO BEATING THE GAME TONIGHT I WANT TO GO TO BED NOT SIT UP CRYING OR WHATEVER. (Okay, I kind of figured I'd walked into it when the fight with Xion started, but still… Mostly I wasn't expecting things to play out quite like this. Or. Something. I don't knooow.) (... AND THEN I PAUSED THE GAME FOR LIKE TWO HOURS WOW AVOIDANCE. Which is kinda odd, because the thing I was most going NOOO about has already happened. Grieving period??)
… hopelessly weak neoshadows, at that. I guess the lesser Nobodies that hang out around our headquarters are all just kind of pathetic?
… also it's weird that he has his hood up. (ALSO I GUESS WE KNOW WHY HE GOT TWO KEYBLADES damnit Xion, damnit damnit damnit)
Ah, there he is. Why do we toss him our keyblade, anyway? I've never understood that. Is it just so he can pummel Heartless alongside us (… and then pummel us), or what?
… Hmm. I think Crisis Core did the memory fade-out better. Or maybe I was just in a way worse emotional state at the time. (That game still has this one beat in terms of emotional trauma. THIS IS A GOOD THING, I wouldn't want to do that again, and I certainly wouldn't want to go through something worse. It would be interesting to reflect on the whys of it, though. Maybe later?)
RIKU FOR GOD'S SAKE NO ONE IN HIS ENTIRE, SOON-TO-BE-OVER LIFE HAS EVER GIVEN HIM A STRAIGHT ANSWER ABOUT ANYTHING. BUCK THE TREND, COME ON.
AND STOP DEFENDING AND FIGHT ME SO WE CAN GET THIS HORRIBLE MESS OVER WITH I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE AAAAUGH
… haha, we're having a Limit Break war.
WATCHING TWO SCREENS AT ONCE IS HARD, GUYS.
… Dude, shouldn't you know why he has the keyblade? Oh, okay. You were just not 100% sure. Somehow. (Real reason: Square wrote this scene before writing this storyline and now they don't want to retcon it completely because we'd all be like WTF GUYS?) ALSO THAT WAS REALLY MEAN AND DON'T CALL HIM SORA LIKE THAT OKAY, THINGS ARE DISTRESSING ENOUGH FOR HIM ALREADY.
NO NO NO XION D: DON'T FADE OUT OKAY THAT IS PRETTY BAD (ALSO I DON'T REALLY MEAN TO COMPARE THE TWO JUST CRISIS CORE IS MY CURRENT STANDARD FOR HORRIBLE SOB-INDUCING ENDINGS AND THIS ONE IS MAKING ME REALLY SAD AND CRYING BUT IT'S NOT LIKE. THE WORST THING EVER. It's just way up there.)
DiZ I WILL MURDER YOU AAAAAUUUUGH
I'M SAD NOW. Dx
No, Roxas. No beach. Ever. I'm sorry. :( …FUCK YOU, EYES, CUT IT OUT.
Ugh. I don't even know what to say.
(edit referenced below: I think it has something to do with choice? Xion chose that, and I've already had a fair amount of time to be sad about what happens to Roxas - plus that one isn't near as horrible. And it was for the best, even if that does suck. Zack had no choice and none of it really meant anything. Even if things managed to work out in the end, it wasn't necessary at all.
Although! I think if SE had set Xion as the player character [or used both Xion and Roxas], I probably - no, definitely - would not have been able to get through that fight on day 357 without going completely hysterical, which is sort of interesting.
... and I really don't mean to say the two are at all comparable or that one is better or worse than the other, just apparently I can't be emotionally stressed by video games now without making thinking of it.)
Wow, that lost steam at the end (er, the entry, not the game). BUT I GUESS NOW I HAVE TO SLEEP SOMEHOW?
EDIT:
I think I've figured out a significant part of why this game made me sad but did not utterly destroy me the way Crisis Core did! But I can't remember how to do the "highlight to read" code, apparently, because it's not working, so I threw it up there under the cut.
JUST. IF ANYONE WAS WONDERING.
(edit: and now another thought, but I think I'm done this time)
Yyyyep, Saïx is angry.
Axel, Xigbar, and Xion? Wow, that is unlikely. …Xion with her hood up, even.
Pff, I go out for strolls with Xibgar ALL THE TIME. He also trolls me. It can't be that special. XP
S'UP SAÏX I DON'T WANT MY OWN DAMN MISSION.
AND YES, BY THE WAY, I EVIDENTLY DO NEED AXEL TO WALK ME EVERYWHERE, SINCE YOU'RE EVIDENTLY TRYING TO GET ME (OR XION. BY THE OTHER'S HAND) KILLED.
ROXAS JUST GO KILL HIM. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
AND NO YOU AREN'T GOING TO REMEMBER YESTERDAY BUT WRITING IT DOWN PROBABLY WON'T DO ANY GOOD, EITHER, WILL IT.
UGH. UGH. I AM GOING TO GO BE HYSTERICAL SOMEWHERE ELSE NOW
See, since I can't actually save until the next day after any scenes that happen in the morning, you got a bit more AAAAUGH from yesterday's events. I will try to stop rage-capsing now. (Rage-capsing is unusual for me! Normally my capslock is just for adding ridiculousness and not actually, you know, expressing loud noises, or complete horror. …Or rage. Though there's been a fair bit of it this game, hasn't there? There's more at the bottom, too!) (So, uh, sorry to those of you who read ALL THE ALLCAPS as screaming. It is generally not meant as such, but I don't think you'd appreciate pages and pages of italicized and/or bolded text.)
… awww, look at me going out of my way to avoid plot progression. THIS IS FAMILIAR TERRITORY. Only instead of doing missions, I'm redoing missions. On Challenge mode! Zack, you and Roxas and maybe Xion should all get together sometime and commiserate.
Okay really no enough of this.
…HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ELIMINATE SIX GIANT HEARTLESS WHEN I AM AFRAID TO FIGHT THEM BECAUSE WHAT IF THEY AREN'T REALLY HEARTLESS?
Oh, Xigbar and Xion are fighting? Why? … And, uh. Isn't that - it's the kid who looks like Roxas but isn't, I don't remember what his name is - the guy from Birth by Sleep?
How strange. Why does Xigbar see him?
What the hell is going on now, Xion? What are you doing?
TELL US GODDAMNIT
WHAT. WHO DOES SHE LOOK LIKE NOW. ASDHFJKLADSN
(Though, uh, I'm kind of laughing at Xigbar just sprawled out on the ground like that. Bleaaaahh fallen over.)
AAAAUGH ANOTHER ORCUS. OR. THE FIRST ONE I GUESS. I am … almost kind of surprised? The … not-Orcus had way fewer hit points than an Invisible and in retrospect I wondered if maybe that was supposed to be a tip-off that something was weird and wrong, but this one has the same comparatively small amount. So I guess they just have less.
HEY, POWERED ARMOR! GUESS WHO'S USING AN AWESOME AERIAL COMBO KEYBLADE TODAY. YES, this is gonna go a whole lot faster than it did at the Coliseum.
p.s. you were only scary the first time I fought one of your incarnations. I mean, back in Traverse Town in the first game.
Ew, Veil Lizard. Really, they aren't so bad now, I just have terrible, terrible memories of that first one way back when. (And worse ones of watching my brother try to fight it, hah. He went for weak magic, strong attack, and I went for strong defense, weak attack, so I won a lot of fights simply by being a little better at outlasting the stuff I was slowly chipping away at. There was also a notable difference in our magic attack power, which actually surprised us both. 'Woah! It does actually make a difference?!' Oh, man, we died so much back then…)
(… she says, as if to imply she does not still die all the time now. No, no, now the difference is that I save most of my dying for the common enemies running around or because I'm all like LIMIT BREAK WHOO I CAN SURVIVE ONE MORE HIT - oops.)
… man, the Dustflier is evil and hard. I'll come back for him later.
ROXAS, XION ISN'T COMING BACK. Sorry. :(
… Axel. Axel. He can't get his eyes checked, he only has one. Unless he wears the eyepatch 'cause he thinks it's cool, which, okay, I'm not sure I'd put that past him.
Well, whoopee for you, Saïx, I don't exactly care that you 'can't use me' it's your own damn fault, anyway. Piss off.
Xigbar, were you even really conscious at that point? It looked to me like she pretty well KO'd you, man.
AXEL IT WAS OBVIOUSLY NOT NOTHING ALL YOU'RE DOING IT STANDING AROUND GOING "…………." AND LOOKING GUILTY. COME ON. Even Roxas isn't that clueless!
THANK YOU, GEEZ, I know this is probably hard but ugh, everyone keeping it a secret is only getting us farther into this mess!
(I do wonder how they even went about designing her, though, I mean. Really. It's very tricky…)
You can't get angry with him for not understand, no one's said a damn thing this entire time, of course he's not going to get it! (… Now, Axel doesn't actually seem to be getting angry, but uh. BUT SHUT UP.) SERIOUSLY, MAN, YOU HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT DIRECTLY. Not for me, 'cause I catch on a lot faster than your little idiot friend. Well. SORT OF FOR ME, because I am all distressed that he is all angry and hating everything and everyone and THERE ARE ONLY LIKE 5 DAYS LEFT AND THERE ISN'T TIME FOR THAT.
So, wait, why are we skulking around Beast's Castle, Riku? I'm not sure I follow. Keeping an eye on the Princesses of Heart, maybe?
(SHE'S IN THE MANSION, XION. I WANT TO SAY "DON'T GO! NO!" BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE TO AND THIS IS YOUR DECISION BUT IT STILL MAKES ME SAD.)
AAAAA DAY 354
… I'll, uh. I'll stop starting every new day with a scream now. OR I'LL TRY TO, ANYWAY.
XEMNAS, YOU HAVEN'T FALLEN OFF THAT STUPID CHAIR AND DIED YET. GET TO IT.
(orraaaaaaaange)
OH YOU DID NOT JUST CALL HER AN IT UGH I HATE YOU.
… go back to sleep, Demyx.
(ORRRAAAAAAANGE seriously, due to the pixilation, half the time he doesn't even appear to have pupils. IT'S JUST ALL ORANGE. EVERYWHERE.)
How many Replicas did they have at Castle Oblivion, anyway? We only know about the two, I think?
Saïx, I would dearly love to drop-kick you right now.
I'm with Xigbar. We're not going to be able to sweep it all up and they are deluding themselves. IT ENDS BADLY FOR EVERYONE. WAY TO GO, GUYS. WAY. TO. GO.
SAÏX. >:|
Totally random aside here, but sometimes I find myself wondering a lot about their heights. I mean, all the other members of Organization XIII are significantly taller than Roxas and Xion (who are probably, you know, about as tall as Sora is). And things are about the same in regards to Sora and the Disney / Final Fantasy characters. So, I mean… Sora's … 14 in the first game, I think? 15 in the second. We know the heights of the Final Fantasy characters, assuming they're stuck with the ones they had in their original games. So Squall's something like 5'8" and Yuffie and Aerith are both on the low end of 5' but it never seems to match up somehow. I DON'T KNOW. Everyone's drawn to a different scale or something. XD I mean, it looks like Axel's got at least a foot on Roxas (I admit, their sticking-up hairstyles make it a bit hard to judge), but I find it hard to believe the other Nobodies are all giants, so they're probably not all 7 feet tall or anything, which puts Roxas at, what, 4, 5 feet tall? I guess he just hasn't hit his growth spurt yet, but it's still something I've found myself wondering about, probably more so than anyone has any right to.
SO ANYWAY WHERE WERE WE? Oh, right, Axel was trying to explain about Xion being a sponge (they say mirror, but that doesn't really fit, you know? She doesn't just reflect him, she's actively leeching off him. … Which makes it sound kind of vampire-y, doesn't it, but it's not like she was doing it on purpose…) to Roxas.
ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTION, AXEL.
… OR WALK OFF, NO, IT'S COOL.
NOOoooo, Roxas, he's trying to protect you (AND IT'S NOT WORKING REAL WELL, AND IT WILL END BADLY, BUT, UH), don't not trust him!
I do not want to talk to you, Saïx. I am quite unhappy with you. RARARAR.
"Place the device"… I DON'T WANT TO. PLACE IT YOURSELF. REBELLION!!!
Because this is something everyone cares about, ever since the second Trick Monkey flip-footed me, I have always opened boxes by standing directly in front of them and guarding immediately after hitting Examine.
Sometimes it pays off, but mostly it makes me look twitchy and ridiculous in front of my teammates, whenever one is present.
WHAT DOES THE DEVICE DO? Oh, nothing good, I'm certain… Last time they references "devices" I went to Halloween Town and then nearly killed / got killed by Xion, so, uh. STOP HELPING THEM DESTROY YOU, DAMN IT, ROXAS. D:
Um. Um. Um. Well. In your defense, Roxas! What else could you do? You don't really know much about… anything. Not that I don't agree that maybe you shouldn't be just blindly going along, but don't be too hard on yourself.
… You are the only person who doesn't know. :(
Axel is still your friend!
… MICKEY. Wow, we don't see you often. Oh, relax, it's just Riku. I guess he dropped his blindfold somewhere or something. Ah, no, there it is. (It's kind of weird how Mickey's sprite is always all :) so his little dialogue box icon is going D:! while he's still got that huge, kind of freaky grin on his face… It's a bit incongruous.)
Oh, that's why Xion is a girl / who looks kinda like Kairi! … REALLY KIND OF OBVIOUS IN RETROSPECT.
(HE LIES, RIKU. HE LIIIIESSSS. HE ONLY SHOWS UP TO SORA AND COMPANY, LIKE, THREE TIMES IN THE GAME. Actually, I guess he does rescue you during the Xaldin fight.)
AAAAAA DAY 355 right, I said I'd stop that.
No one made you, Roxas, he just didn't want you to be upset. IT BACKFIRED MISERABLY, TO NO ONE'S SURPRISE. GOD, THIS IS ALL GOING TO HELL SO, SO FAST.
Go beat some answers out of him. DO IT.
Wait, crap. Is 358 the number of days Roxas is in the Organization, or the number of days he exists, or the number of days he exists outside DiZ's little digital town? Because, uh, if it's either of the latter, I'm probably running away soon. Like, TODAY soon.
Wow, only Axel's here today. GOOD RIDDANCE, I didn't feel like talking to Saïx, anyway.
…MOOGLE FRIEND, I AM SCARED OF THE FUTURE. :< Sell me gear to make me feel better.
YAY AWKWARD SILENCE… AXEL, THIS SITUATION IS STILL SALVAGEABLE PLEASE USE WORDS INSTEAD OF ELLIPSES.
AXEL. WORDS.
Swear to god, if my roommate weren't asleep, I'd be yelling at you just like Roxas is. AUGH, YOU IDIOT!
I AM GOING TO CRY, YOU IDIOTS ARE BREAKING MY DAMN HEART.
… wow, these Dusks are really weak compared to the others I've fought so far.
Oh. Saïx wasn't in the Grey Area because he's lurking down here. Fabulous.
I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T ACCEPT RESIGNATIONS. YOU WANTED ME GONE, ANYWAY. BLARGH!
That's right, Roxas, you tell him!
Ahaha oh crap, this won't end pretty.
… or, uh. Never mind. I guess he buffs up sometime between now and when Sora fights him later? Or maybe I'm just remembering that fight as being a little harder than it was.
SEEN THIS BEFORE
ONLY NOW IT'S EVEN SADDER. AXEL, YOU UTTER … STUPID. STUPID.
FFFFFFF 356
…Hey, it's not screaming, okay?
Naminé tells it like it is. I'm so glad someone around here will. ;_; We can always count on her, even if it is unpleasant to hear!
Oh, it'll be as if she never existed at all. Xion…! D: She's very brave, really.
But, Xion… if you never existed, they won't remember promising you they'll look after him. But you probably know that already, huh? (… wibbly wobbly timey wimey…?)
DiZ GO AWAY you always tick me off. (IT IS BECAUSE YOU'RE A JERK.)
What's she planning…? She knows he'll win, and… okay honestly I have a terrible suspicion I know what she's planning but I don't like it so I'm choosing to ignore it. LALALA WILLFUL IGNORANCE.
…Xemnas, I see you still haven't fallen off your silly chair to your death.
357
D: I'm not ready…
(Well, I can always save it for tomorrow. Which is the plan! whee.)
MORE D: that stupid clock tower.
Awww, Moogle friend! You came after m---y wallet! Awww. I'm touched, regardless.
Oh, Xion, you came and you brought ice cream. This won't go well, will it.
Um. Hi, now Sora-look-alike.
OH GOD SHE IS NO NO NO STOP IT
( … the hell? Weird outfit.)
I TOLD YOU THOSE DEVICES WERE BAD NEWS AND YOU DIDN'T LISTEN TO ME. How many are there? At least two.
I don't want to fight! D: I understand why I have to (EVEN IF ROXAS DOESN'T, UGH, THIS POOD KID), but I like Xion! I don't want to have to kill her and make her disappear!
Halloween town… at least three of them, then.
Music change. Just the three, then?
Back to Twilight Town. I DON'T WANT TO. D:
… if I die, do I restart at the very beginning, or from the most recent stage? (let's not find out…)
Also, damnit, I'm sad she didn't offer him any answers, either. Roxas, your life is the most unfair thing ever.
Heh. Each of these stages, I've let her have the first strike. That's oddly sentimental of me. (It wasn't even intentional, I just… noticed I was doing it.)
WAAAAH XION I'M SORRY. I know this is what you wanted, but I AM STILL SO, SO SORRY.
Oh god Dx SHE IS SHATTERING IN SLOW MOTION DAMN MY EYES AND THEIR LEAKING Xionnnnnn D: D:
ROXAS LEFT HIM THE WINNER ICE CREAM STICK :((((((
Oh, you know what, Xemnas? Fuck you. YOU WANTED HIM GONE, YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM BACK NOW THAT YOU SUDDENLY NEED HIM AGAIN 'CAUSE YOUR PLAN BACKFIRED IN A MANNER THAT IS ONLY HILARIOUS FOR HOW BADLY IT SCREWED YOU OVER (WAY TO GO, XION). Seriously. Just. I didn't like you, anyway, you were always the one Organization member I never really felt bad for at all, and this game is just DRIVING THAT POINT HOME. You are a bastard.
So were Ansem (Seeker of Darkness, not DiZ, though DiZ? Also kind of a bastard. Though I guess he wasn't always. But I've never met that guy, so I just spend a lot of time snarling at him) and (presumably) the original Xehanort, so at least you come by it honestly, I guess.
(I AM UPSET AND IT IS COMING OUT AS ANGER)
END OF DAYS NOW. WAAAH ;___;
SWARM OF NEOSHADOWS. I REMEMBER THIS FROM THE SECRET ENDING OF THE FIRST GAME. Riku's gonna show up and kick my ass soon, isn't he. Oof. … wait, I don't get to save, do I? Blargh! WHY HAVE YOU TRAPPED ME INTO BEATING THE GAME TONIGHT I WANT TO GO TO BED NOT SIT UP CRYING OR WHATEVER. (Okay, I kind of figured I'd walked into it when the fight with Xion started, but still… Mostly I wasn't expecting things to play out quite like this. Or. Something. I don't knooow.) (... AND THEN I PAUSED THE GAME FOR LIKE TWO HOURS WOW AVOIDANCE. Which is kinda odd, because the thing I was most going NOOO about has already happened. Grieving period??)
… hopelessly weak neoshadows, at that. I guess the lesser Nobodies that hang out around our headquarters are all just kind of pathetic?
… also it's weird that he has his hood up. (ALSO I GUESS WE KNOW WHY HE GOT TWO KEYBLADES damnit Xion, damnit damnit damnit)
Ah, there he is. Why do we toss him our keyblade, anyway? I've never understood that. Is it just so he can pummel Heartless alongside us (… and then pummel us), or what?
… Hmm. I think Crisis Core did the memory fade-out better. Or maybe I was just in a way worse emotional state at the time. (That game still has this one beat in terms of emotional trauma. THIS IS A GOOD THING, I wouldn't want to do that again, and I certainly wouldn't want to go through something worse. It would be interesting to reflect on the whys of it, though. Maybe later?)
RIKU FOR GOD'S SAKE NO ONE IN HIS ENTIRE, SOON-TO-BE-OVER LIFE HAS EVER GIVEN HIM A STRAIGHT ANSWER ABOUT ANYTHING. BUCK THE TREND, COME ON.
AND STOP DEFENDING AND FIGHT ME SO WE CAN GET THIS HORRIBLE MESS OVER WITH I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE AAAAUGH
… haha, we're having a Limit Break war.
WATCHING TWO SCREENS AT ONCE IS HARD, GUYS.
… Dude, shouldn't you know why he has the keyblade? Oh, okay. You were just not 100% sure. Somehow. (Real reason: Square wrote this scene before writing this storyline and now they don't want to retcon it completely because we'd all be like WTF GUYS?) ALSO THAT WAS REALLY MEAN AND DON'T CALL HIM SORA LIKE THAT OKAY, THINGS ARE DISTRESSING ENOUGH FOR HIM ALREADY.
NO NO NO XION D: DON'T FADE OUT OKAY THAT IS PRETTY BAD (ALSO I DON'T REALLY MEAN TO COMPARE THE TWO JUST CRISIS CORE IS MY CURRENT STANDARD FOR HORRIBLE SOB-INDUCING ENDINGS AND THIS ONE IS MAKING ME REALLY SAD AND CRYING BUT IT'S NOT LIKE. THE WORST THING EVER. It's just way up there.)
DiZ I WILL MURDER YOU AAAAAUUUUGH
I'M SAD NOW. Dx
No, Roxas. No beach. Ever. I'm sorry. :( …FUCK YOU, EYES, CUT IT OUT.
Ugh. I don't even know what to say.
(edit referenced below: I think it has something to do with choice? Xion chose that, and I've already had a fair amount of time to be sad about what happens to Roxas - plus that one isn't near as horrible. And it was for the best, even if that does suck. Zack had no choice and none of it really meant anything. Even if things managed to work out in the end, it wasn't necessary at all.
Although! I think if SE had set Xion as the player character [or used both Xion and Roxas], I probably - no, definitely - would not have been able to get through that fight on day 357 without going completely hysterical, which is sort of interesting.
... and I really don't mean to say the two are at all comparable or that one is better or worse than the other, just apparently I can't be emotionally stressed by video games now without making thinking of it.)
Wow, that lost steam at the end (er, the entry, not the game). BUT I GUESS NOW I HAVE TO SLEEP SOMEHOW?
EDIT:
I think I've figured out a significant part of why this game made me sad but did not utterly destroy me the way Crisis Core did! But I can't remember how to do the "highlight to read" code, apparently, because it's not working, so I threw it up there under the cut.
JUST. IF ANYONE WAS WONDERING.
(edit: and now another thought, but I think I'm done this time)