Apr 24, 2005 19:00
"Li amerò per sempre"
I find it hard now to express what i'm feeling... though i know exactly what it is... i know why i feel this way... and i know that it won't last too long... Its a happiness that's not joyful and a sadness thats not depressing... Its everything that i've wanted to feel... and everything i didn't... and as everyone knows i have a large range of feelings...
Right now i don't know which way to go... there are so many options at the moment that its hard to decide... i could let it continue just the way it is... which isn't too bad... or i could push it... i could bend it further... but it might snap... it might break... and that would break my heart...
"Ignorance is bliss... but how do you ignore something so obvious... how do you let it go..."
"I Love You"... such simple words that mean so much... but words that can be abused if not use right... or if used to much... so i vow now... to only say those words when the deepest part of my heart means it...Yes its true i care deeply about you all... but there's only one person my heart cries for... and that is who i truly can say those words to...
I've heard those words recently... but were they ment when they were said... i don't think i will ever know... but in that moment... that one solitary moment... it felt so good to hear them...
"Call out my name... and i shall hear it... even if i'm half way around the world... i will hear you... and only you"
I've never known this feeling before... its almost completly new... and i know that i will never forget... how can i forget... Is it even possible to forget such a thing... is it?
Its right in front of me... but as of yet i haven't been able to grasp it... but tomorrow is a new day... and a new week starts... and i feel a change in the air... i feel it... but i don't know which way the wind shall blow... i can only hope that its in my favor... please dear God just let me be happy for once... let this feeling be real... and shared...