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it hit a little bit when i said FACE and i just got a table-full of family looking confused.
hit a little bit more when i said RAVEN COULD KILL EVERYONE and nobody quoted any of dear reader
then it hit really fucking hard when i was saying goodbye to jamie at the airport.
at first i was upset becuase i wouldn't see her in a long time. it's really hard to part with someone that you're that close to, and i will miss her dearly. then i realized that i'd be seeing her in july, and it made me feel a bit better. and then i used the thought of seeing the uchi again in august when i got back to mac to help me feel even better, but then i realized that i'm not going back and it made me a little sad again.
even with all of the insecurity i felt with the uchi this year, you guys have been there for all of my college years, and i think i've formed a bond with the group, and i don't intend to cut it off. i said goodbye to everyone when they left, not crying, because none of my goodbyes felt like goodbyes. and i know they're not. it's more like a we'll have a really really long vacation before i see you again someday, 'cause you people are my people, and i like you and i'd like to keep ya'll around.
still, i'm just sick and tired of those parents who are all "college was a blast, you're gonna be so sad it's done." no. college was not "a blast". college was fucking hard, and i worked my ass off for it. i had some good times, and i will miss those, but those good times are not going to stop happening simply because i'm not in that college bubble anymore, and i'm not going to give up my friends in the name of "being an adult" just so that i can live an adult-like boring ass life, and i feel sorry for you that you think that giving up all that is good in the name of "the end of college" is the adult thing to do.
in addition, i feel that what i have been "having a blast" for is just this. i'm ready to shed the macalester cocoon and become a butterfly of spreading the meaning of those big words that i learned here. maybe make a difference. maybe do something interesting with the rest of my life. and college was awesome, but it's got it's time and place. and that time is over. and the place is coming with me wherever i go.
so to the friends, you're not rid of me yet. and to the world, i'll be there soon, and you won't be rid of me for awhile either. so there.
hit a little bit more when i said RAVEN COULD KILL EVERYONE and nobody quoted any of dear reader
then it hit really fucking hard when i was saying goodbye to jamie at the airport.
at first i was upset becuase i wouldn't see her in a long time. it's really hard to part with someone that you're that close to, and i will miss her dearly. then i realized that i'd be seeing her in july, and it made me feel a bit better. and then i used the thought of seeing the uchi again in august when i got back to mac to help me feel even better, but then i realized that i'm not going back and it made me a little sad again.
even with all of the insecurity i felt with the uchi this year, you guys have been there for all of my college years, and i think i've formed a bond with the group, and i don't intend to cut it off. i said goodbye to everyone when they left, not crying, because none of my goodbyes felt like goodbyes. and i know they're not. it's more like a we'll have a really really long vacation before i see you again someday, 'cause you people are my people, and i like you and i'd like to keep ya'll around.
still, i'm just sick and tired of those parents who are all "college was a blast, you're gonna be so sad it's done." no. college was not "a blast". college was fucking hard, and i worked my ass off for it. i had some good times, and i will miss those, but those good times are not going to stop happening simply because i'm not in that college bubble anymore, and i'm not going to give up my friends in the name of "being an adult" just so that i can live an adult-like boring ass life, and i feel sorry for you that you think that giving up all that is good in the name of "the end of college" is the adult thing to do.
in addition, i feel that what i have been "having a blast" for is just this. i'm ready to shed the macalester cocoon and become a butterfly of spreading the meaning of those big words that i learned here. maybe make a difference. maybe do something interesting with the rest of my life. and college was awesome, but it's got it's time and place. and that time is over. and the place is coming with me wherever i go.
so to the friends, you're not rid of me yet. and to the world, i'll be there soon, and you won't be rid of me for awhile either. so there.