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Feb 24, 2005 21:32

well .. now that we have a whole journal thing goin i guess its my turn once again ( Read more... )

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xforever January 25 2005, 02:57:07 UTC
to be mature.. you should treat people with respect. that's all i'm saying.

i'm proud of you for paying bills, making money, doing well in school, having a car, and keeping control of your life.

you DO talk shit about me. and you do it behind my back. you insult me, and i don't even know about it till sam or someone points it out to me. so you're not saying it to my face. you do it to nikita, too. i know i wasn't supposed to bring this up or whatever.. because you wanted it hidden.. but you did call nikita ugly.. that was rude. i don't know what she did to deserve that. besides, she's not even ugly. and she isn't the type to just.. hate you over trivial shit like this. she's not like the "sams" you speak of. you, on the other hand, are. because you always change your mind about people. last time i checked, you hated sam AND adin with a passion. when did that change, and how? you're kinda fickle in that way. making up with people is one thing.. going from hating to liking and back again is different. i know, i've done it with sam.. so i guess we're alike. but dont' accuse me of shit you do too.

i definitely didn't say i tripped and slapped her. i walked by.. and smacked her back. it was intentional. i.. didn't say it wasn't? rumors.. what i did say, in retrospect, is that she didn't really deserve it.

i never put down the drug-using public as a group. i ask that people don't use when they're around me.. and i tend to choose friends who are like me.. because i don't find drunken people or high people.. any kind of intoxicated people.. or tobacco smoke attractive. it's just not my thing. you can do what you want in your spare time. i'm not going to discriminate against you because you use.. i'm just going to stay clear of you.. and that's obviously ok with you.. because you hate straightedge people.

why do you think nikita should leave me anyway? do you think i'm cheating on her or something? 'cause i never have. i've been stupid in the past.. and left her for like three day periods.. because i was unsure of how to deal with such strong feelings.. i'm just crazy that way.. it means a lot that she stayed with me through it all. that's why i think we'll stick together. we never fight.. we understand each other.. and we care for each other. and that's all that matters. i'm not treating her badly. i don't want brooke, and i don't want duk. i want nikita and only nikita..

and i certainly wouldn't get mad if she got high. only thing i ask.. only thing i've EVER asked.. is that she not do it around me. and she understands that! she asked me tonight if i'd get mad at her for occasionally doing it.. i said of course not. it's her body.. her life. she's seventeen. her choice. and i love her no matter what.

i think that's all i needed to say.

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