The Future: It's all moot if I can't deal with "Now"
What time is it? GAME TIME!I want to do a few things before I inevitably forget them. I'm no multitasker. In fact, I've basically given up on the idea of doing things when they're supposed to be done and took up the idea of letting the cards fall where they may.
Bad choice, considering I'm terrible at planning. It's a huge chore and I do not enjoy it in the least. So at the very least, I'm going to immortalize my to-do list. So if I really need to be reminded of how screwed I am, I'll just resort to the internet, like how I resort to it for everything else.
1) I need to graduate. Period. I don't want to have to stick around campus cuz' I failed some fuckin Game Theory class. Essentially, it's the math and applications behind multiple people making choices keeping in mind each other's likely responses. And it is such bullshit that I've already thoroughly bored myself to tears typing this.
2) I need to time manage myself better. I can't seem to get all my things in order. I have two weeks of laundry that need doing, or I'm gonna smell like...well, me. I have a white shirt I wanna wear for my walking ceremony. I have a directing presentation I have yet to REALLY prepare for that's due in a little over 24 hours. And yet, I'm blogging?? That's one side of the problem.
3) I need to blog more. I need to paint and draw more. I need to come up with silly ideas for movies, gather close friends, and have a blast trying not to fuck it up that badly. I need to pick up the trombone and piano again. I need to go out for beers more often. I need to learn to like running around the neighborhood for exercise. I need to get Netflix and have weekly movie nights. I need to be free.
4) I need to find my friends again. I don't need a girlfriend to love me, I need friends to be happy with me. I hope that's what I really want, anyway.
5) I need to go have lunch with Ana Fernandez.
6) I need to plan a date with Skyline Class of 04', cuz nobody else is doing it.
7) I need to be studious. Game theory. Directing actors.
8) I need to write more scripts. I've decided the name of my next script: "Kiss The Girl".
9) I need to fix my computer screen.
10) I need to talk to Buzznet.com about working there.
11) I need to find a new place to live.
12) I need to buy new shoes, my Sambas are wearing down.
13) I need to spend more quality time with my sister when we're together.
14) I need to plan something for Father's Day.
15) I need to back up my computer's hard drive and cell phone's contacts list.
16) I need to be chill. This sort of thing is not natural to me anymore. I try and I try, but there's always something that I gotta take care of that has smaller consequences than I imagine. But essentially, I'm a worrisome person. Will it happen overnight? Maybe.
Maybe I'll stop giving a shit to things that don't matter. Maybe I'll sit down and really pull my life together. Maybe things will work out. But for now, there's not enough hours in a day.