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So a friend of mine tried to off herself.
I know this, because I read her LJ entry the next morning.
I thought I might be too late.
I set things in motion to get her help. I called on friends who knew someone with a key.
She was taken to the hospital. Last I heard, she was stable, but hadn't regained consciousness.
I know I did the right thing.
She talked in her post about how she was a failure, how she failed at life.
The irony of the situation, and I've considered the poor taste of even bringing this up, is that she even failed at trying to end the life that she believed was a failure and a waste.
I know I did the right thing.
You can't write your own ending. That's not the way of things. You don't
get to decide when it's time to punch your ticket.
It's just not proper. Not the way you play the game.
It's like leaving the theatre in the middle of the film. Even if the film's been shitty up to then, you've paid your money, you should sit there and finish it out. You never know what's going to happen, and you never will if you leave early.
I know I did the right thing.
But what if she's succeeded? Would that have given her life meaning? Certainly not to her... she'd just be dead. I can't see how that would make a difference.
Sorry, my friend. This is yet one more failure you have to admit to. But I don't consider it in the LOSE column. Being alive, no matter how shitty your world is, is a perpetual WIN. It always trumps the alternative.
I know I did the right thing.
My head is heavy now.
I know this, because I read her LJ entry the next morning.
I thought I might be too late.
I set things in motion to get her help. I called on friends who knew someone with a key.
She was taken to the hospital. Last I heard, she was stable, but hadn't regained consciousness.
I know I did the right thing.
She talked in her post about how she was a failure, how she failed at life.
The irony of the situation, and I've considered the poor taste of even bringing this up, is that she even failed at trying to end the life that she believed was a failure and a waste.
I know I did the right thing.
You can't write your own ending. That's not the way of things. You don't
get to decide when it's time to punch your ticket.
It's just not proper. Not the way you play the game.
It's like leaving the theatre in the middle of the film. Even if the film's been shitty up to then, you've paid your money, you should sit there and finish it out. You never know what's going to happen, and you never will if you leave early.
I know I did the right thing.
But what if she's succeeded? Would that have given her life meaning? Certainly not to her... she'd just be dead. I can't see how that would make a difference.
Sorry, my friend. This is yet one more failure you have to admit to. But I don't consider it in the LOSE column. Being alive, no matter how shitty your world is, is a perpetual WIN. It always trumps the alternative.
I know I did the right thing.
My head is heavy now.