best of times/w0rst of times
my tarot reading was right on the money. people are assholes, my friends are superficial, and there is love in my life. how generic and easy to interpret, you could probably have any cards and it will fall into the same interpretation. but the only thing different this time: nothing to do with money, and the final card was sort of foreboding in a sense ... not to become disillusioned. i am applying this to my friendships, or lack thereof ... the ones i have discovered to be shitty lately (beth/anna this doesn't apply to you so don't worry girls) ... rather than to you know who because that will stress me out. i don't like to say "but it's only tarot cards so blah blah" because you never know. fucked up shit happens all the time so i don't want to take any chances.
so i don't know what to think about my relationship with darren. one minute we're friends, the next we're not. usually i would say fuck it, but he's just one of those people that i don't want to lose cuz we have some great memories together & despite all of the shit we have put each other through, he's been an awesome friend to me. there are just so many good things i can say; they outnumber the not so good things by far and that's what counts. i can say the same thing for just about ALL of my friends (all 2 of them!) & my relationships with them; even about my relationship with andy. i think we went through more bullshit in three weeks ... but that's off the subject. i dunno what to do. i don't like to keep pushing a touchy subject but it's important to me that we stay friends. there are some people who come into your life and break parts, change parts, add parts, mend parts ... and darren is one of them. a lot of things have changed because of him but i'm not complaining. i just wish i knew what to do to cheer him up. he's essentially a good person with good intentions and a good heart. i hate to see him down.
so i don't know what to think about my relationship with darren. one minute we're friends, the next we're not. usually i would say fuck it, but he's just one of those people that i don't want to lose cuz we have some great memories together & despite all of the shit we have put each other through, he's been an awesome friend to me. there are just so many good things i can say; they outnumber the not so good things by far and that's what counts. i can say the same thing for just about ALL of my friends (all 2 of them!) & my relationships with them; even about my relationship with andy. i think we went through more bullshit in three weeks ... but that's off the subject. i dunno what to do. i don't like to keep pushing a touchy subject but it's important to me that we stay friends. there are some people who come into your life and break parts, change parts, add parts, mend parts ... and darren is one of them. a lot of things have changed because of him but i'm not complaining. i just wish i knew what to do to cheer him up. he's essentially a good person with good intentions and a good heart. i hate to see him down.