conflicted thoughts

[twelve_thirty]

when i got back here, things started to progress in a downward spiral and i feel a vacancy in my daily routine. i'm lonely, but i have friends. i'm sad, but i'm always smiling. i can't really explain what's wrong, but i think i'm regretting things that i can't help change. i've met quite a few new people this past month, all in which i hope to get

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hey man...

[hambone995]

HEY MAN, IT'S ME...JESSY, ILL BE YOUR GF. LOL JK. BU TI READ THE LAST ENTRY, I THINK WHAT ALOT OF THIS HAS TO DO WITH YOU MOVING. I REMEMBER TALKING TO YOU WHEN YOU WERE IN INDIANA AND YOU SEEMED REALLY HAPPY OVER THE PHONE. I DONT KNOW IF YOU WANNA OVERCOME THE EFFECT MOVING HAS DONE TO YOU OR UN-DO IT. I ALSO THINK YOU HAVE A SPECIAL ABILITY THAT YOU AND I SHARE, NOT ALOTA PEOPLE HAVE THIS. I KNOW BISSON HAS THIS TOO, HE'S ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD IT. IN A NUT SHELL ITS PRETTY MUCH MAKING DUE WITH WHAT YOU GOT. BUT WHAT I MEAN IS, GOD DAMN IT TURN OFF THE FUCKING A/C, ANYWAY, WHAT I MEAN IS YOU TEND TO FIND GOOD OR FUNNY OR WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL IT IN ANYONE YOUR AROUND. LIKE FOR EXAMPLE TAKE MY COUSIN TYLER, WHEN HE TACKLED YOU AND ACTED LIKE AN ASS THE VERY 1ST TIME YOU SAW HIM, MOST PEOPLE WOULDA BEEN LIKE "WHAT A FAG", IN FACT YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN, BUT THAT WASNT THE END OF HIS 1ST IMPRESSION IN YOUR MIND. SO...*SIGH* WITH THAT SAID, NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE YOUR GONNA BE SMILING LIKE YOU SAID. THE "DEPRESSED" FEELIGN YOUR GETTING, IS THE WANT FOR MORE OR TO BETTER YOURSELF. AND IN MY OPINION THAT'LL COME WITH GROWING UP. SO JUST DO WHAT YOUR GOING AND SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN.
P.S. I LOVE YOU LIKE
BLACK WOMEN LOVES MONEY

Re: hey man...

[liberatoroftroy]

ill be your girlfriend

seriously dude...you dont need someone to tell you good job or anything.....reflect your life....it is mostly good concerning circumstances that have taken place.....you are doing fine with moving across the country so dont get depressed because that will make it worse. If you want a girl...find one and dont be shy about it...im sure one will come by

Re: hey man...

[twelve_thirty]

i'm tryin. things are starting to take shape. i've been trying to keep busy so i don't think too much. it helps. thanks nick.