Apr 17, 2007 11:38
Girl, afraid
Where do his intentions lie?
Or does he even have any?
But he never even looks at me.
I give him every opportunity.
This has become my theme song. It just seems to fit every situation I've gotten myself into these days.
Katie tells me I shouldn't feel like an idiot, but I can't help it. I can't help but feel that there must be something wrong with me, not him. Why else would he have rejected me?
On top of it all, I get no sympathy from another person whose intentions I can't figure out and who seems to be distancing himself from me as well in a way that I don't understand.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Thank god Andrew Bird is tonight. I need some serious RSBF action to get myself out of this funk. Music loves me unconditionally. So does ice cream.
Katie does as well, I believe. She made me a crown that said "my beautiful queen" on it out of silver duct tape and I plan to wear it tomorrow to class.
Mandy is a good friend. I should nurture that friendship. I get the feeling that I'll need her even more in the future than I do right now.
I'll quit fuckin' rambling about stuff that I'm sure makes no sense.
rejection,
friends,
music,
andrew bird,
rock tourism,
boys,
reflection,
ta,
rsbf,
moz