Well...
Lately, I've been wondering, why I always screw up good things. Nothing can ever go right for me. Every time I try to do something well, or make something good or get excited about anything it turns out that either my anxiety or my ego gets in the way. This occured to me at the meeting with my counselor today.
I try to be good, I try to do what I'm told but I always wind up thinking the wrong thing, and then saying or doing the wrong thing.
It's nothing...just the story of my life.
It seems I have dug myself a hole and now, I have to get everyone else around me to stop digging, so that we still might have a chance to climb back up to the surface and reclaim our dignity. I know it's not only my hole, but I sure as hell grabbed a shovel this weekend and I vow to do my best to fix this issue so that everything can work out as best it can in the future.
I may continue to fuck things up, but, hey, at least I can say I tried.
I know I'm being vague, but, I don't think it would be appropriate for me to go into any actual detail. I just really felt the need to put this out there.
(ps...this is not about Sarah.)
I try to be good, I try to do what I'm told but I always wind up thinking the wrong thing, and then saying or doing the wrong thing.
It's nothing...just the story of my life.
It seems I have dug myself a hole and now, I have to get everyone else around me to stop digging, so that we still might have a chance to climb back up to the surface and reclaim our dignity. I know it's not only my hole, but I sure as hell grabbed a shovel this weekend and I vow to do my best to fix this issue so that everything can work out as best it can in the future.
I may continue to fuck things up, but, hey, at least I can say I tried.
I know I'm being vague, but, I don't think it would be appropriate for me to go into any actual detail. I just really felt the need to put this out there.
(ps...this is not about Sarah.)