Somewhat Better
I am feeling better today than I was the other day. Still missing my friend greatly, but now I am able to function just a little bit better. I decided to come back to work today. What a mistake! I wanted to pull my hair. I didn't realize how annoying everyone at work was. No wonder I don't hang out with any of these people after hours.
I had to go through pictures last night and pick out of some of Carl to give to his daughter. He wasn't a big picture taker but I could always coax him into taking some whenever we went on vacation together or had a night out. I feel bad that I have so many of him and she rarely have any. So, while going through my photos and pulling out the ones of him by himself, I had another breakdown remembering the good times we had together and realizing that I will never have them again. I remember reading a post from
catherinebruce where she decided to write a letter to her father, and I thought that I would do the same with Carl. A way for me to feel as if I am not alone and that he is still with me and I can tell him everything, just like I use to.
Anyway, thank you to everyone on my friend's list that commented. It makes a huge difference, believe me. I didn't realize how much having an online blog would help me in some of my most difficult times. It's replenishing to say the least. So, thanks you guys.
I had to go through pictures last night and pick out of some of Carl to give to his daughter. He wasn't a big picture taker but I could always coax him into taking some whenever we went on vacation together or had a night out. I feel bad that I have so many of him and she rarely have any. So, while going through my photos and pulling out the ones of him by himself, I had another breakdown remembering the good times we had together and realizing that I will never have them again. I remember reading a post from
catherinebruce where she decided to write a letter to her father, and I thought that I would do the same with Carl. A way for me to feel as if I am not alone and that he is still with me and I can tell him everything, just like I use to.
Anyway, thank you to everyone on my friend's list that commented. It makes a huge difference, believe me. I didn't realize how much having an online blog would help me in some of my most difficult times. It's replenishing to say the least. So, thanks you guys.