I see a good amount of Fear here. "Oh, gosh...honestly, there's a lot of things. I tend to see a lot of flaws in myself, real or imagined. Probably the one that's been bothering me the most lately is my tendancy to run away. I'm not very good at coping when things get too sad or overwhelming...my reaction is almost aways to run and hide, either literally or emotionally" is a big flag, and so is ""I'm nervous and easilly stressed, and my habit of running away makes things pile up and makes me even more stressed. Even when I seem calm, there's panic brewing in the back of my mind". Anxiety and stress are a few hallmarks of fear.
But I realized I also saw Disappointment a lot, particularly towards yourself. "Lately I've found myself avoiding people more--it's not that I don't like people, but I hate feeling like I'm bothering people, and whether I really am or not I feel like joining in on a conversation really does make me a bother" seems to be a worry of burdening others, and "What could be so important about the self?" as well as "hope, I suppose, although like i said I feel that for others, just...not myself". "Again, because of my habit of running away, I get frustrated with myself. I tend to be sort of controlling, too, so I get frustrated with people when they don't act the way I expect or want them to" shows both Fear and Disappointment. There are quite a few other places that show that, but I think this is a good sampling to point out. :)
But I realized I also saw Disappointment a lot, particularly towards yourself. "Lately I've found myself avoiding people more--it's not that I don't like people, but I hate feeling like I'm bothering people, and whether I really am or not I feel like joining in on a conversation really does make me a bother" seems to be a worry of burdening others, and "What could be so important about the self?" as well as "hope, I suppose, although like i said I feel that for others, just...not myself". "Again, because of my habit of running away, I get frustrated with myself. I tend to be sort of controlling, too, so I get frustrated with people when they don't act the way I expect or want them to" shows both Fear and Disappointment. There are quite a few other places that show that, but I think this is a good sampling to point out. :)
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