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[turtleypenguino]

i love you.

im trying to move on.
its just so hard.
i saw your mother the other week.
she said she misses me.
and still considers me
her daughter -in- law.
i couldnt tell you.
i cant tell you.
but i miss you.

it still feels awkward to be near you.
because i want to hold you
and kiss you
and love you.
but i cant.

the replacement you couldnt take it either.
he is weak.
weaker than you.
he cannot stand on his own.
he is beautiful like you.
they agree.
but he is ruthless.
and harsh.
and small.
his heart is different.

I wish i had you next to me.
this feeling is resurfacing.
im working on a new one persay.
but its hard.
i am having conflicting
feelings about this.
the
way
i
am.
the
way
you
are.
the
way
it
was.

What
will
be?