Mar 01, 2005 11:23
I got accepted to Eastern Kentucky, i had been worrying about it for months now because as soon as i graduate im kicked out i wont even be 18 but they dont care.. so if i didnt get accepted to a college then i wouldnt have a place to live the whole year, which wouldnt be cool. so now i have to find a place to live for the summer and every summer after that until i graduate from college, which i plan on getting my masters degree so it might be awhile. my aunt called to talk to my grandma and i told her i got accepted and all she said was where are you going to live when schools out, i was like dont even worry about me if that is all you fuckin care about, i swear why cant she be happy for me just one time, she just wants to get rid of me as soon as possible, which im fine with, if they give me my moms check every month then ill move out right now, but no there not going to do that because they live off of my ss check, bitches. so they wont kick me out because they would loose money, so i guess i can do what i want?, maybe i should go ahead and get my lip pierced if they kick me out there giving up money.. and i know they wouldnt do that. so much on my mind, and on top of all that matt is confusing me, he says he doesnt want a girlfriend because his ex did him wrong..blah blah blah, im not his ex, i wouldnt break up with him because i didnt feel like going out with him anymore, i swear why does he insist on leading me on if he knows nothing will happen between us, such as dating, its bullshit why are all guys the same?.. and so predictable.. i knew this would happen, and if he doesnt want a girlfriend why does he still call me and want to hang out with me, in more then a friend kinda way, im so confused, dating was so much easier when i was a freshamn, .....