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i have jury duty tomorrow morning. ughhh fuck. seriously, i just want to get away. i can't believe i still have a fucking curfew. i'm 19, i live at home, & i have a curfew. what is wrong with this picture?? ugh. i want to grow up. but it's hard when my parents are holding me back. i want to start my life, but it's hard when i have to stay in salisbury where there isn't SHIT to do. i need to breathe on my own without the consent of my parents. honestly..i may just be complaining, but hey. this is how i'm feeling. and i might as well just let it out.
it's hard when he doesnt tell me the god damn truth.i know he's lying to me & i know he bluffs all the time, but WHAT IN THE WORLD makes him think that i'm fucking okay with that??? i tell him all the time "it's the little things that matter" & "dont' tell me what you THINK i want to hear, but the truth" everything he lacks revolves around honesty. i dont know why..i've known him for 4 years & i still DONT KNOW WHY he does the things he does. it just doesnt' make sense...i want to move on. i want to move away.
why am i so emo when it comes to blogging? i promise i'm not like this.
...all the time.
it's hard when he doesnt tell me the god damn truth.i know he's lying to me & i know he bluffs all the time, but WHAT IN THE WORLD makes him think that i'm fucking okay with that??? i tell him all the time "it's the little things that matter" & "dont' tell me what you THINK i want to hear, but the truth" everything he lacks revolves around honesty. i dont know why..i've known him for 4 years & i still DONT KNOW WHY he does the things he does. it just doesnt' make sense...i want to move on. i want to move away.
why am i so emo when it comes to blogging? i promise i'm not like this.
...all the time.
