@ school bored as hell
Well I'm at school again (finally) I skipped tuesday and wednesday....Tues to try to go job hunting without much luck and wednesday cuz they had dudes checkin cars in the parkin lot and i didn't wanna get my ass busted for cigarettes.....that woulda been not cool @ all....anyways.....Rachel asked his friends and as I thought......as far as they know he's not gay or bi....so whateva....he prolly isn't....i just can't help but hope and pray that he is.....at this point in my life i need someone....it just seems like life doesn't wanna help me out in this situation....this is what is making me really consider a new chapter in my life.....a chapter that i won't exactly reveal to the public (and no it's nothing bad or illegal but it's something I will keep to myself and the select group of trusted ppl)......anyways....I'm supposed to be doin some stupid thing with pics and stuff but I really don't like doin the work in this class cuz its retarded.....I one who likes to fix computers....not make retarded pictures and pointless webpages that say stuff like "hello world" on them.....but, eh, I'll be outta this shit in 9 weeks and I'll be in home school next year and out on my own...maybe then I can have a life....honestly I don't know what I'm going to do with my life....I wanna pursue a singing career.....I just fear that I'm not good enuf....altho i think I'm gonna give that American Idol thing a shot....it's worth a try! If I make it to the show I do if I don't I don't....who cares?! I'm gonna do it with Jess....go to the tryouts I mean....I think she really needs to try it....she could win that shit! Altho Jessica....I'm with u on that whole droppin out before u win thing cuz that WOULD suck bein signed to the same damn company for the rest of ur life.....that would mean that no matter what they wanted to do they could because ur stuck with them for life....the only way to get out from underneath them would be to suck and then ud prolly look stupid as hell and no1 would wanna sign u or listen to ur music or anything....so i guess winning american idol is a losing situation if u think about it.....unless of course ur cool with lettin one company dictate ur career for the rest of ur life....which i don't think many ppl do...well guess thats it for today....I need to let my mind wander off of craig.....I think too much bout him and i don't think it's gonna help cuz I have a strong feeling now that I'm gonna find out the answer from him to my burning question.......I can't really tell what it's gonna be but I do know that the answer is either gonna kill me or make me happier than ever....guess I'll just hafta wait till the day of the answer....which that day waits on me....ugh....7 mins till i go to cookeville BIG FUN....peace out ppl