Broken Clockwork: Chapter 5 (An Interlude)
Title: Broken Clockwork
Fandom: Infinite
Pairing: MyungGyu (Myungsoo x Sunggyu), OT7
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Chaptered
Summary: Myungsoo is sick and tired of his continuous and tiring schedules and wishes he no longer needs to deal with the life of an idol. But he realizes a little too late that he should be careful of what he wishes for as he wakes up ten years into the future, and Infinite is no longer together...
Previous Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4
Chapter 5
An Interlude
Sometimes Sunggyu still thinks he’s sleeping and dreaming when he wakes up, walks out of his room and sees Myungsoo sitting on the sofa watching TV. When he comes back home and Myungsoo walks out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist. When the name “Kim Myungsoo” flashes across the screen of his phone and he hears Myungsoo’s voice asking him when he’ll come home. In a way, Sunggyu has been wishing, wanting this for so long. So now that he finally has it, it feels like Sunggyu is permanently trapped in his own imagination.
It seems so surreal that Sunggyu never wants to wake up. It seems like everything he’s ever wanted for had been happening, and he’s afraid that it’ll just all be taken away from him at some point, or that he’ll wake up from this dream. He’s starting to think that the life between the two of them will just fade away one day, and leave him alone.
So when Sunggyu wakes up one day in the middle of the night, after a nightmare, he is surprised to find Myungsoo sitting on his bed. He wonders if this is just a continuation of his dream, but he pinches himself and Myungsoo doesn’t disappear.
“Gyu hyung, I heard you mumbling to yourself and I was worried. Do you want me to stay here tonight? Maybe it’ll ease all the nightmares.”
Sunggyu nods, and leaves out the information that his nightmares have to do with Myungsoo. He smiles as Myungsoo slips under the covers. His eyelids gently flutter and close as he listens to Myungsoo’s soothing voice. Occasionally Sunggyu would mumble a few words in response, but he mostly keeps quiet so that he can listen to Myungsoo talk. Myungsoo talks about everything and anything - from how much he wonders about why he never fixed things to inane things like what his first impression of his new CEO was.
When Sunggyu’s eyelids finally shut, he dreams sweet dreams about ten years ago that has a different outcome. In his dream, Myungsoo doesn’t leave. Myungsoo responds to his desperate confession of love, and tells him seven words that he has always wanted to hear.
“Myungsoo-ah, please. Please don’t do this to us. Don’t do this to Infinite. It hurts me to have you leave us like this. I’m the leader - you can tell me why you need to do this. I’ll help you talk to the CEO, to the manager hyungs, to anyone that can stop your hurt. When you hurt, I hurt. Because I love you. Just don’t do this. I love you. Don’t leave me. I can’t…have you leave me. I don’t know how I’ll go on.”
“I’ll stay, because I love you too.”
When the sun’s rays hit Sunggyu’s eyes, and he wakes up ten years older, the first thing he lays his eyes on is Myungsoo. Sunggyu runs his fingers an inch away from Myungsoo’s face and he tries to memorize every feature. For a minute, he pretends that his dream was the reality, and everything else was a nightmare. Infinite survived and continued for years. All of them are together. Myungsoo loves him back.
But Myungsoo’s suddenly stirs, and Sunggyu forces himself to let go of his dreams. They were the dreams of a love-sick man of twenty-three, not the realistic expectations of a man ten years older who has been hurt time and time again. He forces himself to plaster on a fake smile, and he sits up and shakes Myungsoo gently.
“Myungsoo-ah, it’s time to wake up.”
“Hyung~ let me sleep a little longer please.”
Sunggyu shakes his head as he gets up and pulls on a pair of jeans over his boxers. He heads over to the kitchen to make some coffee. He sits there and stares off into the distance as he wonders if Woohyun was right about him being unable to handle the situation. Maybe he should just kick Myungsoo out of his house, out of his life.
He wonders if his battered heart can take another break. And he decides that it really can’t.
So when Myungsoo comes into the kitchen and gulps his coffee down, Sunggyu smiles slightly and asks him about his own apartment.