i finally have the life i want back....
...sigh....i cannot describe how incredibly happy i am...Saturday night i had spoken to Adam and we just talked...and as usual i spilled my guts to him. I can't help but still love him and want to be with him. So i told him all of that while he just sort of kept quiet. Although i knew he wanted to say so much more. And i knew what he was thinking. I knew he wasn't happy...and all i wanted was just to be there for him. Support him, comfort him, make him smile and to let him know every day that i love him more than anything. As he was getting ready to leave, we sort of just hugged for what seemed like an eternity. God, knows i didn't want it to end....But he had to go. But, after that, i felt like there was hope for us. I know something sparked that cold October night. And, the warmth of his body next to mine......god, it was incredible. So, yesterday, i waited around all day to hear from him and to know if he got back form Mass. safe and sound. I finally just headed over there around nine or so...i was thinking with my luck, Kim would be there. And whatta you know? she was there. But the look on his face told me he was upset or something bad had happened. so i told him to let me know when she would leave cause i wanted to go over there. Eventually, he called me so i headed on over there. (and he always seems to get more handsome each time i see him) We sat on his bed and just sort of talked. I asked him what was wrong and he told me that kim doesn't pay any attention to him and he's just not happy with her. I'm thinking yes! finally! We get more comfy on the bed and i'm in the middle of saying something when he says "i love you"....i was shocked i stopped what i was saying and starred at him. And i told him i love him too. We held eachother...god it was amazing...and he put the ring he gave me back on my finger.... :) and the rest of the night was perfect. i love him more than anything and would die for him. I know things are going to work out...we've gotten this far....until next time...