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dear diary,
we met. we went out. we confronted. we talked.
he admitted that he is a "kabit" (mistress) and that he knew what he was getting into that kind of relationship and it was fine with him.
we went home. he is drunk. he blurted that he didn't want to go home yet. he wanted to go to fahrenheit, to blue fairies or to wensha. he said "i want to have sex with somene.", to my face.
i fell silent and thought about it.
so he wants to have sex with a perfect stranger but he wouldn't have sex with me though we have gone out several times and he knew me and knew that i have been celibate since we knew each other because he didn't believe in casual sex.
so does that mean that i'm not worth having sex with him? that he is too good for me?
so it was the height of it all. it was a very strong slap to my face. i'm crying so hard, i'm having a difficult time breathing, i think my heart will burst. i can't handle it.
hugs and kisses,
tukso
we met. we went out. we confronted. we talked.
he admitted that he is a "kabit" (mistress) and that he knew what he was getting into that kind of relationship and it was fine with him.
we went home. he is drunk. he blurted that he didn't want to go home yet. he wanted to go to fahrenheit, to blue fairies or to wensha. he said "i want to have sex with somene.", to my face.
i fell silent and thought about it.
so he wants to have sex with a perfect stranger but he wouldn't have sex with me though we have gone out several times and he knew me and knew that i have been celibate since we knew each other because he didn't believe in casual sex.
so does that mean that i'm not worth having sex with him? that he is too good for me?
so it was the height of it all. it was a very strong slap to my face. i'm crying so hard, i'm having a difficult time breathing, i think my heart will burst. i can't handle it.
hugs and kisses,
tukso