once upon a time
Once, there was a girl. She was told that she was beautiful and smart, but she never saw it. She could only see the beauty in others. One day, finally, her dreams came true. She met a wonderful prince. They were married, and she was carrying the next princess. Soon after there wedlock the prince left for battle. She was left alone, all alone, again, but this time was different, this time she was pregnant. She stayed alone with nothing but herself for what felt like years but it was only months. Everyday she willed herself to get up and not be a total reck, each day she failed. She couldn't understand why she finally had everything that she wanted, husband, child, marriage, and yet she would rather be dead or in anybodies skin but her own. The doctors were mean to her, very unkind. It seemed that her Dr. only wanted to make her feel worse about herself and make sure she cried. He accomplished his goal well. Her mother was there for her but couldn't really understand what she was going through. Her sister was nice but very consumed with her own world of perfect, while the girl lived in the world of whatever. One day she received a call that for one day, and one day only, she could see her prince. She couldn't wait! Yet, she still wondered if this one day would be enough to get her through the next month until he could return to her....
She was so tired, and scared all the time. Scared of what was happening to her, of what she was possibly doing to her unborn child, and of if he would still be the same guy she loved and adored so much. If he wasn't what would become of her? Could she survive without him? She didn't feel that she could. She was already dieing each and everyday without him. She was at a loss. She didn't know what to do any longer. She was tired of being alone and tired and scared. She was just simply gone. She hated that she had let herself get so far down but she just couldn't take it anymore and this was the only thing she knew how to do. So she just became a shell of her former self. She smiled when she was supposed to and did everything just so, but on the inside she was gone. Just simply gone.
Everybody told her she was pretty and smart. She could hear there words but she didn't HEAR there words. She was already gone. She just couldn't deal with her saddness any longer and didn't know what to do about it, so she did nothing, and that is what she became....
She was so tired, and scared all the time. Scared of what was happening to her, of what she was possibly doing to her unborn child, and of if he would still be the same guy she loved and adored so much. If he wasn't what would become of her? Could she survive without him? She didn't feel that she could. She was already dieing each and everyday without him. She was at a loss. She didn't know what to do any longer. She was tired of being alone and tired and scared. She was just simply gone. She hated that she had let herself get so far down but she just couldn't take it anymore and this was the only thing she knew how to do. So she just became a shell of her former self. She smiled when she was supposed to and did everything just so, but on the inside she was gone. Just simply gone.
Everybody told her she was pretty and smart. She could hear there words but she didn't HEAR there words. She was already gone. She just couldn't deal with her saddness any longer and didn't know what to do about it, so she did nothing, and that is what she became....