what a messed up week
You learn who your friends are pretty fast.
i had a horrible week.
work sucked. i wasnt sure if i was going to get christmas off or not. i did. why does it matter? i can go home and revel in how much my family and i dont get along? or watch andrew and his new ugly girlfriend make out? i dont have friends in alpena anymore. i dont have any connections there. i dont want to go. i dont want to stay here. i hate holidays. i hate it when there is no one who cares for you in the whole fucking world.
go home or stay here? does it matter? the friends i thought i had here arent the best of friends anyways. when you think someone is your best friend you better realize that they are you best friend until someone better comes along. as soon as that passes i am sure they will call again. fuck that. i am sorry i can only be your friend when your other friends arent around.
one thing i cant stand is when people make plans with you and then make plans over them and act like you are invited. you arent invited. or when you make plans with someone and they invite people you dont get along with.
let me tell you how fun it is to ride in the backseat of a car listening to people sing along to disney. i love high school. what a headache.
i am pissed off.
i hate doing so much for people and offering so much and getting nothing in return. i hate paying for things when goign out with people becaseu thier only excuse for not goign is becaseu they cant afford it and you find out that they cancelled you out to do the same activity with someone else. dont lie to me. i am not stupid.
fuck people. i am not bending over backwards for anyone anymore. i am so tired of working peoples shifts, being someones best friend, and being here for people when they need me for them to stomp on my feelings and care less how it affects me. bull shit. that is what it is. pure bull shit.
you could make an attempt to show you care. YOU DONT. fuck you.
i had a horrible week.
work sucked. i wasnt sure if i was going to get christmas off or not. i did. why does it matter? i can go home and revel in how much my family and i dont get along? or watch andrew and his new ugly girlfriend make out? i dont have friends in alpena anymore. i dont have any connections there. i dont want to go. i dont want to stay here. i hate holidays. i hate it when there is no one who cares for you in the whole fucking world.
go home or stay here? does it matter? the friends i thought i had here arent the best of friends anyways. when you think someone is your best friend you better realize that they are you best friend until someone better comes along. as soon as that passes i am sure they will call again. fuck that. i am sorry i can only be your friend when your other friends arent around.
one thing i cant stand is when people make plans with you and then make plans over them and act like you are invited. you arent invited. or when you make plans with someone and they invite people you dont get along with.
let me tell you how fun it is to ride in the backseat of a car listening to people sing along to disney. i love high school. what a headache.
i am pissed off.
i hate doing so much for people and offering so much and getting nothing in return. i hate paying for things when goign out with people becaseu thier only excuse for not goign is becaseu they cant afford it and you find out that they cancelled you out to do the same activity with someone else. dont lie to me. i am not stupid.
fuck people. i am not bending over backwards for anyone anymore. i am so tired of working peoples shifts, being someones best friend, and being here for people when they need me for them to stomp on my feelings and care less how it affects me. bull shit. that is what it is. pure bull shit.
you could make an attempt to show you care. YOU DONT. fuck you.