So much confusion
Life just sucks sometimes and you have to realize it and get over it.
The hump I have recently been faced with is one that should have been faced after high school. When you realize someone is not worth being your friend do you ignore the hurtful things they do to you and go on being thier friend like an adult or do you be an adult and decide that there are so many other people out there that woudl make life happy, cheerful, and this person is wasting your time? I don't know anymore. The tough stuff come when you and this person have mutual friends.
Over Christmas should I hang out with my old friends from high school? I moved past that. Do I want to go back?
I decided I am going to concentrate on my changes and focus on being successful in school and becoming a healthier person and get over childish relationships and stupid high school games people play with your emotions.
I hate it when you think you are close to someone and you tell them close inner secret and then they tear you apart by telling everyone else or making a joke of it. It sucks even more when you confront them with it and they think you overreacted. Do you keep these people in your life or push them away? How can you ever tell this person anything ever again? Is it possible that trust could ever be built? Would I ever want to trut someone who played with my emotions like this? As I try to make a healthier happier lifestyle I am comfronted with these questions.
I need to stop pleasing others.
Although these entries seem selfish and egotistical I am forced to comment on how I am trying to improve my life. I cant be a good friend, girlfriend, employee or role model to anyone if I can't think highly of myself. I need to gain back some self confidence and this is where it starts.
you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else
Last of all....
I am going to start lyric of the day and it will reflect the way I feel each day.
It will make me happy and think of hot musicians (that will marry me after my change period.
"How easily we can fool ourselves
and see things that just aren't there
Tangle up our emotions until it seems that people truly care
It's been out of my hands now for so long
and there's nothing I could have done
And jealousys an emotion that I'll have to learn to overcome
And what once gave me solace now only gives me pain"
-Matt Nathanson
The hump I have recently been faced with is one that should have been faced after high school. When you realize someone is not worth being your friend do you ignore the hurtful things they do to you and go on being thier friend like an adult or do you be an adult and decide that there are so many other people out there that woudl make life happy, cheerful, and this person is wasting your time? I don't know anymore. The tough stuff come when you and this person have mutual friends.
Over Christmas should I hang out with my old friends from high school? I moved past that. Do I want to go back?
I decided I am going to concentrate on my changes and focus on being successful in school and becoming a healthier person and get over childish relationships and stupid high school games people play with your emotions.
I hate it when you think you are close to someone and you tell them close inner secret and then they tear you apart by telling everyone else or making a joke of it. It sucks even more when you confront them with it and they think you overreacted. Do you keep these people in your life or push them away? How can you ever tell this person anything ever again? Is it possible that trust could ever be built? Would I ever want to trut someone who played with my emotions like this? As I try to make a healthier happier lifestyle I am comfronted with these questions.
I need to stop pleasing others.
Although these entries seem selfish and egotistical I am forced to comment on how I am trying to improve my life. I cant be a good friend, girlfriend, employee or role model to anyone if I can't think highly of myself. I need to gain back some self confidence and this is where it starts.
you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else
Last of all....
I am going to start lyric of the day and it will reflect the way I feel each day.
It will make me happy and think of hot musicians (that will marry me after my change period.
"How easily we can fool ourselves
and see things that just aren't there
Tangle up our emotions until it seems that people truly care
It's been out of my hands now for so long
and there's nothing I could have done
And jealousys an emotion that I'll have to learn to overcome
And what once gave me solace now only gives me pain"
-Matt Nathanson