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ok well i went to my dads this weekend. Wow its like getting to know a total stranger. pretty sad but hey i feel pretty damn fortunate to even know the man. I feel like such a dork. I dont do anything but fucking study, study, clean, extra curiculars, study. What the hell is wrong with me. blah. i feel very not relaxed. I want to go to a concert. But no...my fucking uncle wants to go. i dont want to go with him. what the hell when i get a car...im gone lol. Well not for good, u guyz cant get rid of me that easy. :P
I was also thinking this weekend alot about whats next. After school i mean, high school. Whats the point in living really? I mean hell, we go to school, get smart blah blah blah, make money, get married, and have kids. Wooptie doo. My dad on the other hand, well he has fun. He goes to like every concert, lives out in the woods with his 18 beagle pups and enjoys the hell outta life. My aunt and uncle are exactly opposite. Everything has to be perfect, everything has to be precise and proper. Fuck that. ahh im gonna go play my fucking game.
oah yeah i suddenly feel not so resentful to death. Death could be a good thing for some. If i were to die now, right now, hell i wouldnt know what i was missn so it wouldnt be so bad.
I was also thinking this weekend alot about whats next. After school i mean, high school. Whats the point in living really? I mean hell, we go to school, get smart blah blah blah, make money, get married, and have kids. Wooptie doo. My dad on the other hand, well he has fun. He goes to like every concert, lives out in the woods with his 18 beagle pups and enjoys the hell outta life. My aunt and uncle are exactly opposite. Everything has to be perfect, everything has to be precise and proper. Fuck that. ahh im gonna go play my fucking game.
oah yeah i suddenly feel not so resentful to death. Death could be a good thing for some. If i were to die now, right now, hell i wouldnt know what i was missn so it wouldnt be so bad.