Daily Randomness #1: Slow Days
Days have been excruciatingly slow and long since you've stopped talking to me. I guess that's just how time works when you don't have anything to look forward to. I used to look forward to when you'd come home from work so we could talk or maybe even play something together. Given all the drama circulating your circle of friends lately, I imagine we wouldn't be playing 14 together if we were still talking. But maybe Blade and Soul or something else. I miss the sound of your voice. There's nothing else like it really. I hate that there's so much about you that I like/love and just can't shake
I haven't even wanted to be home lately, it's weird. I'm not quite sure what I want to be doing, but I've been restless, and I've kind of lost my interest in 14 atm. It feels like I'm out of place, like I'm doing something I shouldn't be. I expected to still be at your place now, making myself better in some way. When I wake up I still kind of feel disoriented or lost for a moment. After a few I realize where I am and everything that's happened and I just can't believe that I'm back home and all that shit transpired.
So I've just been here watching reruns for the most part. Things I feel safe with. I don't want to try a new show and risk being emotionally triggered just yet. I'm thinking about trying Daredevil out. That sounds like it should be safe. I want to watch the last Hunger Games movie, and maybe Deadpool. I was trying to keep up with Vampire Diaries and The Originals, but I think those shows went on a break already. I watched House of Cards, that was ok. The first episode was super slow. It took me like three days just to get through it cuz I'd pause it whenever I got bored and couldn't take anymore. Watching that was kind of depressing too since it was something I thought I'd be watching with you there. The Walking Dead has been ok. I'm glad Maggie stopped seeming so weak. I wasn't really a fan of that Denise chick, so I wasn't sad to see her go. That's what she gets for insisting on taking the tracks! The Rick and Michone thing was weird to me, though it makes sense for Carl I guess. Ummmm...
Oh, I left OMG's static recently. That was kind of short lived, but good ridance, I guess. Most of the people in that group didn't want to make an effort to watch videos or study up on a raid before doing it. Most of them liked to go in to everything blind, and I'm sorry, but even I don't have time to just wipe to the same shit over and over for hours and weeks waiting for people to figure out what's going wrong exactly. I expect/want the people I play with to at least put the amount of effort I'm putting in to learning something or beating it. Otherwise I feel like i'm just wasting my time. Even after doing Seph ex 3 hours a night every night since it's release they still make the most retarded mistakes. I guess I can't even call them mistakes, because it's things they act like they don't know better with. Like they're still learning it. So I'm kinda running with Copy and his group. This other group asked me to join them too, and they've actually been farming 5 and 6 so I'm considering it.
Anyhow, going to try and find something to distract myself with for now. I might continue this later tonight.
I haven't even wanted to be home lately, it's weird. I'm not quite sure what I want to be doing, but I've been restless, and I've kind of lost my interest in 14 atm. It feels like I'm out of place, like I'm doing something I shouldn't be. I expected to still be at your place now, making myself better in some way. When I wake up I still kind of feel disoriented or lost for a moment. After a few I realize where I am and everything that's happened and I just can't believe that I'm back home and all that shit transpired.
So I've just been here watching reruns for the most part. Things I feel safe with. I don't want to try a new show and risk being emotionally triggered just yet. I'm thinking about trying Daredevil out. That sounds like it should be safe. I want to watch the last Hunger Games movie, and maybe Deadpool. I was trying to keep up with Vampire Diaries and The Originals, but I think those shows went on a break already. I watched House of Cards, that was ok. The first episode was super slow. It took me like three days just to get through it cuz I'd pause it whenever I got bored and couldn't take anymore. Watching that was kind of depressing too since it was something I thought I'd be watching with you there. The Walking Dead has been ok. I'm glad Maggie stopped seeming so weak. I wasn't really a fan of that Denise chick, so I wasn't sad to see her go. That's what she gets for insisting on taking the tracks! The Rick and Michone thing was weird to me, though it makes sense for Carl I guess. Ummmm...
Oh, I left OMG's static recently. That was kind of short lived, but good ridance, I guess. Most of the people in that group didn't want to make an effort to watch videos or study up on a raid before doing it. Most of them liked to go in to everything blind, and I'm sorry, but even I don't have time to just wipe to the same shit over and over for hours and weeks waiting for people to figure out what's going wrong exactly. I expect/want the people I play with to at least put the amount of effort I'm putting in to learning something or beating it. Otherwise I feel like i'm just wasting my time. Even after doing Seph ex 3 hours a night every night since it's release they still make the most retarded mistakes. I guess I can't even call them mistakes, because it's things they act like they don't know better with. Like they're still learning it. So I'm kinda running with Copy and his group. This other group asked me to join them too, and they've actually been farming 5 and 6 so I'm considering it.
Anyhow, going to try and find something to distract myself with for now. I might continue this later tonight.