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I'm feeling like such a stupid and resentful person for this, but for most of the past year I've been working with various members of staff for Anime Evolution about an officially organized cosplay time schedule. I've refused to be staff for two past two-three years, but this time I would help create the schedule even if I had to be staff.
I talked to people about this last YEAR, nagging people about how Anime Expo had a cosplay schedule. I officially brought it up in June. I started actually working out the schedule in September, when I was finally given the dates for next year. I went over to UBC last month while I was hit hard with influenza to walk outside the UBC campus in light rain for over an hour just to get a tour and take pictures of locations that could be used for cosplay photoshoots.
I was working out the post, and planned on putting it out in January 2010 to mark the new year with a nice surprise to the cosplayers. And then I quietly pushed cosplay aside for November to work on my NaNoWriMo, which I've told everyone I was doing for months.
A little over a week ago, someone posted about creating a cosplay schedule. I posted back, somewhat rudely, I guess, but I worked SO HARD on this and she completely took over it because I wanted to keep it a surprise for the new year. Everyone I haven't talked to is now looking to her to do it. I wrote in my response to her:
I've actually been planning a thread like this since June, lobbying for a board for cosplay and stickying a thread for times and places, coordinating with various people. I wasn't going to post until January, though, to signal the New Year. I've got detailed maps of photoshoot areas, times, photographers available...
It seems like you've jumped ahead of me on this.
Does that mean I'm getting out of the cosplay coordinating job?
And just today she responded on the boards back with: No of course not! In fact, I think it would be great if you joined me! I could use the help =)
It's stupid and illogical and shallow because I started this because I wanted our cosplay schedule to be organized... but it feels like I've invested so much into this that seeing her TAKE OVER with just a little post (she hasn't done ANYTHING other than that!), and then expecting me to "help" her makes me want to just throw all my work at her face and quit.
I've actually had a few people quietly talk to me about this... one of them showed me the thread and then asked what I wanted to do, because I was supposed to be doing that job she had just taken over. I was going to be staff just to do that job. That would be my sole responsibility; this was worked out months ago. I had no other reason to ever want a staff position.
It's extremely bitter of me, but she can have all my work. She can just take over. I refuse to be her "assistant", though. Not when it was my idea and my work in the first place. I just wanted it done. I refuse to be thought of as the person who "stole" her idea, or as the nameless minion. I'd rather have my name crossed off as if I were never involved. I guess that's just the person I am.
I know it's not her fault, and that she's doing a great thing: she's doing what I started last year. But I can't help but feeling extremely bitter about how this is what I get for trying to put everything together myself to give others a nice surprise. I had just started to draw on a map of UBC with colored markers on Paint of marked locations around Halloween, too. I thought it was so fantastically funny, then.
But I'm not out to steal her idea. And I refuse to be the bad guy here, so she can just have this job.
Just forget it.
I talked to people about this last YEAR, nagging people about how Anime Expo had a cosplay schedule. I officially brought it up in June. I started actually working out the schedule in September, when I was finally given the dates for next year. I went over to UBC last month while I was hit hard with influenza to walk outside the UBC campus in light rain for over an hour just to get a tour and take pictures of locations that could be used for cosplay photoshoots.
I was working out the post, and planned on putting it out in January 2010 to mark the new year with a nice surprise to the cosplayers. And then I quietly pushed cosplay aside for November to work on my NaNoWriMo, which I've told everyone I was doing for months.
A little over a week ago, someone posted about creating a cosplay schedule. I posted back, somewhat rudely, I guess, but I worked SO HARD on this and she completely took over it because I wanted to keep it a surprise for the new year. Everyone I haven't talked to is now looking to her to do it. I wrote in my response to her:
I've actually been planning a thread like this since June, lobbying for a board for cosplay and stickying a thread for times and places, coordinating with various people. I wasn't going to post until January, though, to signal the New Year. I've got detailed maps of photoshoot areas, times, photographers available...
It seems like you've jumped ahead of me on this.
Does that mean I'm getting out of the cosplay coordinating job?
And just today she responded on the boards back with: No of course not! In fact, I think it would be great if you joined me! I could use the help =)
It's stupid and illogical and shallow because I started this because I wanted our cosplay schedule to be organized... but it feels like I've invested so much into this that seeing her TAKE OVER with just a little post (she hasn't done ANYTHING other than that!), and then expecting me to "help" her makes me want to just throw all my work at her face and quit.
I've actually had a few people quietly talk to me about this... one of them showed me the thread and then asked what I wanted to do, because I was supposed to be doing that job she had just taken over. I was going to be staff just to do that job. That would be my sole responsibility; this was worked out months ago. I had no other reason to ever want a staff position.
It's extremely bitter of me, but she can have all my work. She can just take over. I refuse to be her "assistant", though. Not when it was my idea and my work in the first place. I just wanted it done. I refuse to be thought of as the person who "stole" her idea, or as the nameless minion. I'd rather have my name crossed off as if I were never involved. I guess that's just the person I am.
I know it's not her fault, and that she's doing a great thing: she's doing what I started last year. But I can't help but feeling extremely bitter about how this is what I get for trying to put everything together myself to give others a nice surprise. I had just started to draw on a map of UBC with colored markers on Paint of marked locations around Halloween, too. I thought it was so fantastically funny, then.
But I'm not out to steal her idea. And I refuse to be the bad guy here, so she can just have this job.
Just forget it.