A Moment
I'm set up to get birthday alerts from LiveJournal (and Dreamwidth), because otherwise I'd never be able to remember them all. LiveJournal's pretty sporadic about it though: sometimes I get them, sometimes I don't have any clue it's someone's birthday until I see everyone else posting about it.
Today I found a birthday alert in my e-mail for
psyco_chick32.
It didn't make me cry, but I still stopped when I saw it. After a moment I realized that it's coming up on a year now. A year since she died.
I still miss her. I know that I always will, and that there will always be a part of me that aches to talk to her, that hurts because she's not here.
It was more that it was one of those moments that reminds you that it hurts, and that the pain hasn't gone away or gotten easier. That you just ... forgot about it for awhile. Not the loss, but the intensity of the pain itself. You get so used to it you stop paying attention to it. And then there's a moment that reminds you that pain is still there, and it just ...
-Blinks rapidly-
I miss you, Kim. And I love you, always. ♥♥♥
Today I found a birthday alert in my e-mail for
psyco_chick32.
It didn't make me cry, but I still stopped when I saw it. After a moment I realized that it's coming up on a year now. A year since she died.
I still miss her. I know that I always will, and that there will always be a part of me that aches to talk to her, that hurts because she's not here.
It was more that it was one of those moments that reminds you that it hurts, and that the pain hasn't gone away or gotten easier. That you just ... forgot about it for awhile. Not the loss, but the intensity of the pain itself. You get so used to it you stop paying attention to it. And then there's a moment that reminds you that pain is still there, and it just ...
-Blinks rapidly-
I miss you, Kim. And I love you, always. ♥♥♥