Getting on the same page with Dan
Another Habitica-motivated LJ entry. It feels so weird to have to force myself to use LJ, but I know it's something I want to do, and between being out of practice and my anxieties about using a ghost platform... Well, there's just no other way. :-/ There's really so much I want to talk about right now, though, and at the same time too much and it makes it hard to figure out where to start, and where I'm going to end. Time for a stream of consciousness, I suppose?
It's been tough, but I've been standing up for myself more with Dan (one of the full-time staff here, and the one that I probably butt heads with the most), which has been really stressful. I've finally talked to him about residents having first dibs on the TV at all times, regardless of whether I could watch the same thing downstairs; I've talked to him about the situation with the dishes, and how it seemed like he was taking just my dirty dishes out of the sink and putting them in my corner, while leaving others' dirty dishes in the sink, setting a double-standard; and I've talked to him about how when I'm having a low spoon/high anxiety day where I'm fighting to keep putting one foot in front of the other, his tendency to constantly make comments along the lines of "So, you're not going to work today?" are demotivating. It turns out some of these situations involved misunderstandings (or perhaps him making shit up that makes him look better...), but after at least two of these conversations he followed up with me later, and we managed to get on more or less the same page with them. He's a really frustrating, bullheaded, and defensive guy who has a very different approach to life than I do, but in the end I'm very grateful that when push comes to shove, he really does try to see things from my perspective.
Made it to both individual therapy and ADT today. It sucks that being in ADT 9 hours a week means I only get to see my therapist for a half hour a week, which on weeks that are tough for me means we barely get to scratch the surface. At least I can meet some of those needs with my ARMHS worker? Afterwards I met up with a guy I met on OkC and saw Deadpool with - I had made homemade lasagna on Sunday night, and he loves lasagna and said it looked good, so I wrapped some up in tin foil to give to him, and he gave me a ride home from Nystrom (well, technically from Starbucks).
Evening wasn't as productive as I'd have liked it to be, but I did get a lot of my Habitica tasks done (aiming for a perfect day!) and renewed/picked up some daily meds that I would have run out of during or slightly after my Twin Cities trip. Also spent some time tidying my room, which God knows it needed.
Oh, on a completely unrelated note, I've decided not to buy any more Kindle books (or really any books at all) unless I already know I really want to read it, or it's a non-fiction book that would be particularly beneficial for me or my interests. I know that ebooks don't take up any physical space, but I have a long enough book backlog as it is without adding to it faster than I can read through it. If I finish my current fiction collection I'll consider browsing for stuff I haven't heard of before.
Alright, I'm getting pretty pooped and this was a decent summary of my day, so I'm gonna turn off the computer. Night, y'all!
It's been tough, but I've been standing up for myself more with Dan (one of the full-time staff here, and the one that I probably butt heads with the most), which has been really stressful. I've finally talked to him about residents having first dibs on the TV at all times, regardless of whether I could watch the same thing downstairs; I've talked to him about the situation with the dishes, and how it seemed like he was taking just my dirty dishes out of the sink and putting them in my corner, while leaving others' dirty dishes in the sink, setting a double-standard; and I've talked to him about how when I'm having a low spoon/high anxiety day where I'm fighting to keep putting one foot in front of the other, his tendency to constantly make comments along the lines of "So, you're not going to work today?" are demotivating. It turns out some of these situations involved misunderstandings (or perhaps him making shit up that makes him look better...), but after at least two of these conversations he followed up with me later, and we managed to get on more or less the same page with them. He's a really frustrating, bullheaded, and defensive guy who has a very different approach to life than I do, but in the end I'm very grateful that when push comes to shove, he really does try to see things from my perspective.
Made it to both individual therapy and ADT today. It sucks that being in ADT 9 hours a week means I only get to see my therapist for a half hour a week, which on weeks that are tough for me means we barely get to scratch the surface. At least I can meet some of those needs with my ARMHS worker? Afterwards I met up with a guy I met on OkC and saw Deadpool with - I had made homemade lasagna on Sunday night, and he loves lasagna and said it looked good, so I wrapped some up in tin foil to give to him, and he gave me a ride home from Nystrom (well, technically from Starbucks).
Evening wasn't as productive as I'd have liked it to be, but I did get a lot of my Habitica tasks done (aiming for a perfect day!) and renewed/picked up some daily meds that I would have run out of during or slightly after my Twin Cities trip. Also spent some time tidying my room, which God knows it needed.
Oh, on a completely unrelated note, I've decided not to buy any more Kindle books (or really any books at all) unless I already know I really want to read it, or it's a non-fiction book that would be particularly beneficial for me or my interests. I know that ebooks don't take up any physical space, but I have a long enough book backlog as it is without adding to it faster than I can read through it. If I finish my current fiction collection I'll consider browsing for stuff I haven't heard of before.
Alright, I'm getting pretty pooped and this was a decent summary of my day, so I'm gonna turn off the computer. Night, y'all!