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I haven't posted in awhile. LJ=Scary. Hello. I guess I am just posting because I am agrivated on at electronics in general. Not only is my room a mess (Just got back from a trip look), wires are tangled everywhere. Okay, I solved the wire part. The thing was is I had to pull the wires out of from the computer in order to get them untangled. The beautiful part is the mouse won't fit back into the outlet no matter what I do. It's old anyway and the prongs probably moved around too much so now they won't fit. Too small to mess with so I can't really do much to change anything.
Oh, and not only that I got new speakers and it doesn't come with audio cable cords. UMMMMM. Totally uselesss.
Then I buy a webcam, right? hahahahaha. It didn't come with a mic. What the???
So I am forced to make another trip to best buy. Oh and I don't have a car or a credit card. Not having either of these in this city really sucks. NOT HAVING MONEY SUCKS! Being trapped in the apartment sucks.
My IPOD BROKE! My credit card is lostttttttt................ and the food in america way better than it is in Japan which is good and bad. I think the portion sizes need to change!
Sooooo irritated!! How am I on the computer without a mouse? I am on my laptop stealing someone elses unsecured wireless network. I feel insecure about using it so I need to get a mouse ASAP. Not having music while I do things is too quiet....I think my desktop is going to blow up because I have too much stuff on it like music so I need to get my ipod so my music is safe. Speaker!! I don't know where a lot of my Cds are....
hmmm now I need to think about my future. I think instead of going to school this semester I am going to work. I asked the lady at the sawamura for a job but she said she just hired people but she did take down my name and I do believe her when she says that if there are any changes she will call. I guess I can't wait around. I thought it would be ideal because it was close by, and it's actually ran by Japanese people. It will help me to practice. I really want to practice.
I would think about places but the not having a car issue is boggling. There is private driving instructor place around. I think I could do it now seeing as my general state of emotional being was way different from when I was in High school.
I either have to work or go to school just so I have something to do. Immobility is not an option.
As for the future, I am either going to college in the East coast USA or I am going back to Japan within the year. Unfortionately, the two colleges in Florida that offer anything Japane related are extremely hard to get into. I need a school that has miminal admissions policy if college is going to be an option. My desicion is leaning toward taking another program in Japan probably. I just have to research. We'll see. I will have to decide soon.
Going back to Japan ASAP sounds more appealing but maybe I need more of a reason to be there. or not? I have money! I never know quite I what I want to do with my future in regards to Japan, like if I want a perminate job there? Some places don't even require a degree to teach which is the extent of jobs there unless you want to work at hostess bar or are already alligned with a business firm that has dealings over there.
Every time I go back to Japan, I never quite get over the high of being there until like the last week and then I have to go home. It's only the 3rd month that I start to adapt. And as the pattern goes, I come back a few months later and it feels like a refreshing first date all over again.
The problem that I have in general about leaving is saying goodbye. Good bye is the worst........and it isn't goodbye. It's just a new chapter. It's part of the reason why I hate to return or leave in either location is because I get extremely attached. I readapt and readapt and ow. I care about my friendships very much...
As for college. I want a degree for probably how it looks to have a degree. Feeling accomplished is important.
For me to accomplish anything is such a brain excersize. AAAA!
Sometimes I think I have ADD. Because even in classes I am interested in, I can't keep my attention span up. My attention goes to my interpersonal relationships or "What should I do after class?"
Then if I understsnd something, I pay close attention because I feel smart for a second (Stroking the ego). If I don't understand, then my brain gets confused and shorts out. Actually, when I ask questions, it's the most productive. I just get self conscious and in this experience specifically, the english knowledge of the teachers was limited.
I need to get over a lot of image point things. I think if I did...hahahahhaa
I love bike riding but much like the electronics, My bike seat killed me! Or maybe it's the shocks? Ice skating way better to think about in retrospect. I want to take up a physical hobby but I suck at everything but it feels productive. I am curious about Kendo. Left from right is my problem.
I did get up this morning at a decent hour! YES!!!!Try 10am!!!! YES! I have been getting up 4am lately. Jet lag sucks. OH.... Boys have way too much chemical control over girls I think. @_@ ow ow
Happy New Year! @_@
Oh, and not only that I got new speakers and it doesn't come with audio cable cords. UMMMMM. Totally uselesss.
Then I buy a webcam, right? hahahahaha. It didn't come with a mic. What the???
So I am forced to make another trip to best buy. Oh and I don't have a car or a credit card. Not having either of these in this city really sucks. NOT HAVING MONEY SUCKS! Being trapped in the apartment sucks.
My IPOD BROKE! My credit card is lostttttttt................ and the food in america way better than it is in Japan which is good and bad. I think the portion sizes need to change!
Sooooo irritated!! How am I on the computer without a mouse? I am on my laptop stealing someone elses unsecured wireless network. I feel insecure about using it so I need to get a mouse ASAP. Not having music while I do things is too quiet....I think my desktop is going to blow up because I have too much stuff on it like music so I need to get my ipod so my music is safe. Speaker!! I don't know where a lot of my Cds are....
hmmm now I need to think about my future. I think instead of going to school this semester I am going to work. I asked the lady at the sawamura for a job but she said she just hired people but she did take down my name and I do believe her when she says that if there are any changes she will call. I guess I can't wait around. I thought it would be ideal because it was close by, and it's actually ran by Japanese people. It will help me to practice. I really want to practice.
I would think about places but the not having a car issue is boggling. There is private driving instructor place around. I think I could do it now seeing as my general state of emotional being was way different from when I was in High school.
I either have to work or go to school just so I have something to do. Immobility is not an option.
As for the future, I am either going to college in the East coast USA or I am going back to Japan within the year. Unfortionately, the two colleges in Florida that offer anything Japane related are extremely hard to get into. I need a school that has miminal admissions policy if college is going to be an option. My desicion is leaning toward taking another program in Japan probably. I just have to research. We'll see. I will have to decide soon.
Going back to Japan ASAP sounds more appealing but maybe I need more of a reason to be there. or not? I have money! I never know quite I what I want to do with my future in regards to Japan, like if I want a perminate job there? Some places don't even require a degree to teach which is the extent of jobs there unless you want to work at hostess bar or are already alligned with a business firm that has dealings over there.
Every time I go back to Japan, I never quite get over the high of being there until like the last week and then I have to go home. It's only the 3rd month that I start to adapt. And as the pattern goes, I come back a few months later and it feels like a refreshing first date all over again.
The problem that I have in general about leaving is saying goodbye. Good bye is the worst........and it isn't goodbye. It's just a new chapter. It's part of the reason why I hate to return or leave in either location is because I get extremely attached. I readapt and readapt and ow. I care about my friendships very much...
As for college. I want a degree for probably how it looks to have a degree. Feeling accomplished is important.
For me to accomplish anything is such a brain excersize. AAAA!
Sometimes I think I have ADD. Because even in classes I am interested in, I can't keep my attention span up. My attention goes to my interpersonal relationships or "What should I do after class?"
Then if I understsnd something, I pay close attention because I feel smart for a second (Stroking the ego). If I don't understand, then my brain gets confused and shorts out. Actually, when I ask questions, it's the most productive. I just get self conscious and in this experience specifically, the english knowledge of the teachers was limited.
I need to get over a lot of image point things. I think if I did...hahahahhaa
I love bike riding but much like the electronics, My bike seat killed me! Or maybe it's the shocks? Ice skating way better to think about in retrospect. I want to take up a physical hobby but I suck at everything but it feels productive. I am curious about Kendo. Left from right is my problem.
I did get up this morning at a decent hour! YES!!!!Try 10am!!!! YES! I have been getting up 4am lately. Jet lag sucks. OH.... Boys have way too much chemical control over girls I think. @_@ ow ow
Happy New Year! @_@