in which i am an idiot

[tsuki_no_bara]

dear self,

you walked away for a reason. and that reason was not so you could go back and see what you were(n't) missing. you do not know her any more and you didn't really know her then either. which is why you did it. checking in will make you nothing but miserable and you know that, and the fact you just did it anyway makes you kind of an idiot.

frustratedly,

self

dear person i no longer consider a friend but (for my sins) still occasionally think about,

if you can write that pairing and that fandom and make it sound remotely like canon, and make it believable, i'll be really surprised. and yet i still kind of want to read it. mostly so i can mock, but whatever. i guess there's always a chance it will actually be good.

amused,

me

i did have something less angry and bitter to mention, but now i don't remember what it was. bleh. the sun is shining and it's a beautiful day so i think i'll take a walk. i need to get the mail anyway, and say hi to starbucks. and, um, buy soap. *ahem* i may or may not have fic babble later. brace yourselves. :D