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I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'll never be a size 0. I'm not beautiful, nor do I always have good skin or hair. I don't care about my clothes most times, until I'm fealing suddenly self concious that I can't afford designer labels. I don't wear makeup, I can barely apply it. Whatevers and straight men have better makeup and self-fashion skills than I do.
I'm not the best in class. I dropped out of a hard to get into school, and will never make it back in. I speak at inappropriate times, and get put down for it. I have no amigdaIa. I'm in mindless love. I'm synical. I can't spell. Noone ever cares. I'm treated like I'm 5. Sometimes as old as ten. People younger than I am are treated with more respect, even though they've never faced half the things I have. I go out of my way to help people, but I'm never thanked.
I'm not the best semstress. None of my costumes are showy, and I'm a complete nobody in the cosplay sceen, even though I've been in it for 4+ years.
I can't afford eveything I want, nor can I afford to get things for other people. I'm the worst present shopper you will ever find. And once I buy things for people, I forget to give them.
I don't always answer my phone, but that's cause I'm busy working or schooling. It's not like many people ever call me, even though they have my number. I do answer my voicemail though.
I don't have many friends to just go hang out with. I get lonely and clingy. I drive people away because I'm scared they'll use me, or make fun of me for being well, me. I feel like a burden.
I'm fealing whinny, emo, and sounding like a dramalama and hating myself for it, but can't stop. I even had a pretty good day today, except for the whole "I hate being female" bit. Someone make me happy. Call me. Text me. AIM me. Comment. Anything. Help me feal like I'm not completely alone even when I'm surrounded by others.
I'll never be a size 0. I'm not beautiful, nor do I always have good skin or hair. I don't care about my clothes most times, until I'm fealing suddenly self concious that I can't afford designer labels. I don't wear makeup, I can barely apply it. Whatevers and straight men have better makeup and self-fashion skills than I do.
I'm not the best in class. I dropped out of a hard to get into school, and will never make it back in. I speak at inappropriate times, and get put down for it. I have no amigdaIa. I'm in mindless love. I'm synical. I can't spell. Noone ever cares. I'm treated like I'm 5. Sometimes as old as ten. People younger than I am are treated with more respect, even though they've never faced half the things I have. I go out of my way to help people, but I'm never thanked.
I'm not the best semstress. None of my costumes are showy, and I'm a complete nobody in the cosplay sceen, even though I've been in it for 4+ years.
I can't afford eveything I want, nor can I afford to get things for other people. I'm the worst present shopper you will ever find. And once I buy things for people, I forget to give them.
I don't always answer my phone, but that's cause I'm busy working or schooling. It's not like many people ever call me, even though they have my number. I do answer my voicemail though.
I don't have many friends to just go hang out with. I get lonely and clingy. I drive people away because I'm scared they'll use me, or make fun of me for being well, me. I feel like a burden.
I'm fealing whinny, emo, and sounding like a dramalama and hating myself for it, but can't stop. I even had a pretty good day today, except for the whole "I hate being female" bit. Someone make me happy. Call me. Text me. AIM me. Comment. Anything. Help me feal like I'm not completely alone even when I'm surrounded by others.