Turns out
that Bito didn't steal anything from my room. Yet. But he's going to get me back soon. Sometimes we steal crap from each other's rooms (Mostly me) and I got him so bad on Sunday by stealing his mattress and covers and shit, and scraping ALL his crap off his floor and putting in my room. It was hilarious. He's planning to get me back so bad. And he doesn't kid around that shit. It's gonna come back to me ten-fold. When I least expect it. The only hints I've gotten are that I will be physically unable to stop it, and if anything gets accidentally ripped or teared, I will be reimbursed. ...Shit.
It's been a rough 3 days, gotta say. I'm a bit of a mess emotionally. And I'm exhausted. It's not even like the schooltype I-Can't-Take-The-Drudgery-Anymore kind of tired. Though I am physically tired cuz of movement. It's just mentally they've overworked us in a ridiculous way. I kind of dozed in James' class yesterday, and like, said he was dissapointed in me. And today rehearsing my scene with Elisa during Jo's class I like broke and laughed 5 times. I have no idea why. We have all these final projects and heavy duty assignments and it's just really difficult to keep up. I am not about to fall apart in the final days. Everything is going to be wonderful, I know.
But anyway, these last 3 days have been triple whammy. On the Saturday, the city was wonderful, but I was definitely thrown by the situation made by Andy about me forgetting my phone. Sunday I had a really emotional conversation with Jon which was in part very good. The whole getting in touch with our emotions stuff we've been doing caught up with me and it all came out and I was a hysterical mess. But healthy in part, I guess. And yesterday... oh whew, yesterday.
So basically... without exact specifics, yesterday during Jo's class, Bito and I were passing notes, some people read it over our shoulders and then later went through my stuff to read it. Apparently people were really upset.It was nothing intentional, and to be frank... I really didn't do anything. But people were not happy. I went around and confronted people directly who I thought would need the most talking to, and I got mostly okay feedback. Then I had to go into town with 3 girls whom I've felt very close to this whole time, and it was just so beyond the threshold of awkwardness I can handle, and I had to leave. I felt horribly alienated, and that someone who is very important to me here's opinion of me has changed dramatically. Today it was still kind of awkward but not so bad, but I feel the shift in the atmosphere, and I hate it. I'm going to try to let it not it stress me, but I hope it is resolved. I'm not trying to ruin friendships here. I do have to say that there on the whole there was a general overreaction. If people had a problem, they could have found me, and only one person did. I think people are penalizing me for something that they themselves do (and everyone else in the world does) but aren't stupid enough to put it on paper. Were the situation reversed, I would've probably not been thrilled either but I would've understood and not let it get me. For the most part I believe people have forgotten about it, and I'll just have to work through the awkwardness. I'm sure in the next 2 or 3 days, things will be normal. But as of now, I do feel a little lonely here.
But with all the stuff going on here, I do need a bit of a break and I'm gonna chill in my dorm for just a little bit by myself. To clear my head and get refocused. I need some time to get it all out.
Whewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Breathe.
It's been a rough 3 days, gotta say. I'm a bit of a mess emotionally. And I'm exhausted. It's not even like the schooltype I-Can't-Take-The-Drudgery-Anymore kind of tired. Though I am physically tired cuz of movement. It's just mentally they've overworked us in a ridiculous way. I kind of dozed in James' class yesterday, and like, said he was dissapointed in me. And today rehearsing my scene with Elisa during Jo's class I like broke and laughed 5 times. I have no idea why. We have all these final projects and heavy duty assignments and it's just really difficult to keep up. I am not about to fall apart in the final days. Everything is going to be wonderful, I know.
But anyway, these last 3 days have been triple whammy. On the Saturday, the city was wonderful, but I was definitely thrown by the situation made by Andy about me forgetting my phone. Sunday I had a really emotional conversation with Jon which was in part very good. The whole getting in touch with our emotions stuff we've been doing caught up with me and it all came out and I was a hysterical mess. But healthy in part, I guess. And yesterday... oh whew, yesterday.
So basically... without exact specifics, yesterday during Jo's class, Bito and I were passing notes, some people read it over our shoulders and then later went through my stuff to read it. Apparently people were really upset.It was nothing intentional, and to be frank... I really didn't do anything. But people were not happy. I went around and confronted people directly who I thought would need the most talking to, and I got mostly okay feedback. Then I had to go into town with 3 girls whom I've felt very close to this whole time, and it was just so beyond the threshold of awkwardness I can handle, and I had to leave. I felt horribly alienated, and that someone who is very important to me here's opinion of me has changed dramatically. Today it was still kind of awkward but not so bad, but I feel the shift in the atmosphere, and I hate it. I'm going to try to let it not it stress me, but I hope it is resolved. I'm not trying to ruin friendships here. I do have to say that there on the whole there was a general overreaction. If people had a problem, they could have found me, and only one person did. I think people are penalizing me for something that they themselves do (and everyone else in the world does) but aren't stupid enough to put it on paper. Were the situation reversed, I would've probably not been thrilled either but I would've understood and not let it get me. For the most part I believe people have forgotten about it, and I'll just have to work through the awkwardness. I'm sure in the next 2 or 3 days, things will be normal. But as of now, I do feel a little lonely here.
But with all the stuff going on here, I do need a bit of a break and I'm gonna chill in my dorm for just a little bit by myself. To clear my head and get refocused. I need some time to get it all out.
Whewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Breathe.