Knight of Swords
"It is a good thing I checked our schedule before I ovulated."
Thus began last night's quote-writing: listening to the other directors on my team and the crazy conversations people have... Sometimes they aren't as funny out of context; then again, sometimes they are even more outrageous. Apparently, J. was planning to get pregnant next month, when she luckily realized that would mean giving birth during the height of our production next summer! She will wait a month...
J. also brought a tiny set of tarot cards last night - her new toy. I do not believe these forecast anything, but I do use these sorts of items as interesting tools for observation. "Scrying." I riffled through and drew out:
Knight of Swords [not reversed]
ACTIONS
Direct..........Blunt
is frank and outspoken..........is tactless and rude
gets straight to the point..........may have a brusque manner
does not mince words..........does not spare the feelings of others
lets others know where they stand..........can't hold his or her tongue
gives an honest answer..........shows little discretion
Authoritative..........Overbearing
speaks with assurance..........tends to be domineering
commands attention..........forces a position on others
acts with total certainty..........expects immediate compliance
gives orders naturally..........does not welcome dissent
has great influence..........acts in a high-handed manner
Incisive..........Cutting
has a keen, forceful intellect..........is prone to biting sarcasm
penetrates to the core..........lacks sensitivity
expresses ideas succinctly..........can be critical
is sharp and alert..........has a barbed wit
debates and argues well..........derides stupidity
Knowledgeable..........Opinionated
knows what he or she is talking about..........believes he or she is always right
can expound on any topic..........lacks tolerance of other viewpoints
is sought as an expert..........must have the last word
has well-reasoned positions..........is arrogant
is highly intelligent.........can be dogmatic and close-minded
Logical..........Unfeeling
reasons clearly..........undervalues intuition
analyzes information well..........treats people like numbers
concentrates on what is correct..........doesn't temper justice with mercy
can set aside emotional factors..........is cut off from emotions
makes sense out of confusion..........is cold and aloof
Interesting especially, because I had been trying to eat my own brain this weekend with worry over What Would Happen as I gave notice this morning.
This card threw just a bit more confidence at me, after all those loving and supportive folks gave me their advice, that I would deliver the message clearly, and deal with the results competently and better! Everyone's advice?
Bears: It will all be over in two weeks.
Wolffe: Your boss doesn't matter. Any bad reactions are based on lack of control and have nothing to do with you.
M&D: It is all business. You have to do what is best for you.
Actually, the toughest parts have been anticipation of the act since it would produce unpredictable results, and figuring out what to say/how to say it. I recommend HEARTILY a few websites on how to write a letter of resignation, and the whys & wherefores given there.
The last time I had to resign, it was with terrific emotion from unemotional [at the time] me, in 1992, from a small job with a nice accounting firm which was SO not me. My boss, a girl about my age, was a dictator who stomped the office halls, hormonal beyond belief. Of course, she was 24 at the time and Mormon AND going through a divorce, so there were probably extenuating circumstances.
Am I so emotionally upheaved nowadays? I hope not, although I am definitely more of a girlie-woman and less the robot I was in those days. And I really dislike how my own emotions ambush me sometimes. Is it the pill? Is it recently realizing I have anger and don't know how to harness & control it? More observation is warranted.
But, just as I was very unexpectedly calm at the end of last week, I am supremely relieved now. The old job is fading, the new one is coming. Now all I need is a car.
On that front, here's what Bears got his feet into yesterday...
A mid-life-crisis-mobile? Perhaps. But it was a pretty bitchin' bil at a really good price. A Plymouth Laser. Perhaps I'll just be a passenger for a while. Naaaaahhhh...... Bring on the Toyotas!!
