Hurray for March!
It's already March and I have been really lazy in updating this lj. -_-
I think it's starting to be a habit of posting just 2 entries per month though I know that sheer procrastination is really the reason for this drought in my writings. Gomen nasai!~
My first year in Adamson U is going to end three weeks from now, and it really has been a roller-coaster ride for me. My former nursing batchmates will graduate on April while here I am, a first/second year Geology student. It's kind of sad and depressing,really. My aunties spewed dissenting comments about my future, and I'm just tired of defending my decision all the time. I'll just patiently study and do my very best to learn what I have to learn about being a Geologist. Someday, I hope that I'll be able to prove them wrong- that I can succeed based on my own choices.
Somehow, when I was a nursing student, the future looked bleak. Thinking about my future nursing career was unexciting. I felt that after having a nursing degree, my life will be all about the mundane routines of nursing. I never even thought of going to medical school. But with Geology, I have always this excitement in me. Every time I talk to my fellow coursemates, I can't help but always look forward to the major subjects that I will be taking soon. I have this inner drive to continue for the sake of self-fulfillment. This was unlikely during my nursing days. All my motivations stemmed from the monetary bribes like higher allowance, which was the only thing I really miss, and endless gifts of gadgets and groceries. Hahaha. Right now, I'm deprived of those luxuries. But I'm happier and satisfied than I've ever been in my life.
I'm turning 20 in the next six months and I know that I'm not getting any younger. Here in the Philippines, graduating past the 20 years of age is frowned upon by elders. I have always this fear of being rejected because of being too old for the job. But I will persevere. After all,I'm just at the right age in college like the rest of the world. Hahaha :P
I'm writing this in order to remind myself to keep moving forward.
I never went back to square one.
I just changed paths.
I may have looked back to the first trail I took and occasionally wondered what if I didn't shift gears. But by looking back, I'm also seeing the me of 3 years ago: undecided, indifferent, and lukewarm. I'm not that person anymore. There may have been traces of my young self, but I'm improving.
I'm more opinionated, assertive, and confident than I've ever been in college. I still have my doubts, my anxieties, and my weaknesses. But without taking the road less traveled, I may have never been this kind-of-mature person that I am now. I'm thankful for the decisions I made and to my family who gave me the benefit of the doubt. My journey to this new trail is just starting. After all, "Marami pa akong kakaining bigas" (I still have a lot of rice to eat in order to succeed).
I think it's starting to be a habit of posting just 2 entries per month though I know that sheer procrastination is really the reason for this drought in my writings. Gomen nasai!~
My first year in Adamson U is going to end three weeks from now, and it really has been a roller-coaster ride for me. My former nursing batchmates will graduate on April while here I am, a first/second year Geology student. It's kind of sad and depressing,really. My aunties spewed dissenting comments about my future, and I'm just tired of defending my decision all the time. I'll just patiently study and do my very best to learn what I have to learn about being a Geologist. Someday, I hope that I'll be able to prove them wrong- that I can succeed based on my own choices.
Somehow, when I was a nursing student, the future looked bleak. Thinking about my future nursing career was unexciting. I felt that after having a nursing degree, my life will be all about the mundane routines of nursing. I never even thought of going to medical school. But with Geology, I have always this excitement in me. Every time I talk to my fellow coursemates, I can't help but always look forward to the major subjects that I will be taking soon. I have this inner drive to continue for the sake of self-fulfillment. This was unlikely during my nursing days. All my motivations stemmed from the monetary bribes like higher allowance, which was the only thing I really miss, and endless gifts of gadgets and groceries. Hahaha. Right now, I'm deprived of those luxuries. But I'm happier and satisfied than I've ever been in my life.
I'm turning 20 in the next six months and I know that I'm not getting any younger. Here in the Philippines, graduating past the 20 years of age is frowned upon by elders. I have always this fear of being rejected because of being too old for the job. But I will persevere. After all,I'm just at the right age in college like the rest of the world. Hahaha :P
I'm writing this in order to remind myself to keep moving forward.
I never went back to square one.
I just changed paths.
I may have looked back to the first trail I took and occasionally wondered what if I didn't shift gears. But by looking back, I'm also seeing the me of 3 years ago: undecided, indifferent, and lukewarm. I'm not that person anymore. There may have been traces of my young self, but I'm improving.
I'm more opinionated, assertive, and confident than I've ever been in college. I still have my doubts, my anxieties, and my weaknesses. But without taking the road less traveled, I may have never been this kind-of-mature person that I am now. I'm thankful for the decisions I made and to my family who gave me the benefit of the doubt. My journey to this new trail is just starting. After all, "Marami pa akong kakaining bigas" (I still have a lot of rice to eat in order to succeed).