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Got a call from Maho today. Haven't talked to her for a while, got that kinda warm-and-fuzzy feeling. I miss other people too (both local and Toronto-area), I just feel too worthless in my situation to call them. This seriously feels like being disconnected from life, and it is taking its toll on me. I wonder which would be worse: this, or having stayed at Link. The bright side is that the way I'm doing it actually changes things. As such, no regrets. The down side is that I have limited control over how things change, but if it's easy it probably isn't worth it. I do believe I might have drawn a wild card though, so I may be able to play this hand yet.
Busted out the grammar book today, long overdue, and I am plowing through it. I'm surprised actually. All the kanji studying has overlapped with the material (maybe 1/3) in the book, and understanding what the book is trying to teach me is pretty easy (much more than expected) on most of the functions as well (this book is in Japanese only, i.e., it teaches you Japanese in Japanese). It's like using a J-J dictionary for grammar structure, and frankly, I think this works better than J-E since there are functions that don't translate. There's some less stress on this level, as I feel the outlook is getting more into the "you'll be fine" category.
No call back from Mr. Yamada yet, which I was hoping would come today, even though it was said before that it would more likely be next week. No worries. Happy thoughts. This waiting game is the pits though. Unhealthy amounts of watching the phone hoping it would ring, as I studied the day away (it's officially the critical crunch week starting Monday). I'm hoping that next week can be study dedicated, mostly.
Gonna pay for a little distraction (alcohol) tomorrow. I figure it will do my mental health some good, hopefully enough to carry over into next weekend when I sit the test.
FORWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD!!!!
Busted out the grammar book today, long overdue, and I am plowing through it. I'm surprised actually. All the kanji studying has overlapped with the material (maybe 1/3) in the book, and understanding what the book is trying to teach me is pretty easy (much more than expected) on most of the functions as well (this book is in Japanese only, i.e., it teaches you Japanese in Japanese). It's like using a J-J dictionary for grammar structure, and frankly, I think this works better than J-E since there are functions that don't translate. There's some less stress on this level, as I feel the outlook is getting more into the "you'll be fine" category.
No call back from Mr. Yamada yet, which I was hoping would come today, even though it was said before that it would more likely be next week. No worries. Happy thoughts. This waiting game is the pits though. Unhealthy amounts of watching the phone hoping it would ring, as I studied the day away (it's officially the critical crunch week starting Monday). I'm hoping that next week can be study dedicated, mostly.
Gonna pay for a little distraction (alcohol) tomorrow. I figure it will do my mental health some good, hopefully enough to carry over into next weekend when I sit the test.
FORWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD!!!!