update
well this weekend was susposed to be freakin amazing. the week went slow but it was good and i couldnt wait until suday and monday. But instead i crashed (emotionally) and it was going good so far. i mean i thought that this was going to be a date but no at the last second(on sunday), after it was all planned out and i only need to know where to pick her up, so said i cant do this ill tell you more come tuesday. WHAT THE HELL! that pissed me off so much and i thought that i had a chance. i mean its like im running down the field to score the winning goal and then SLAM! the entire football team tackels me! So i still had my sunday plans but i was so worried that the other girl would see that i was upset so i did everything i could to rip my thoughts of a ruined monday from my mind. And yeah i had fun, we went bowling and i lost 50 bucks, i took her to wendys and then i drove her home we hug and i said we should do this again. But damnit after i got home i crashed and then i got the living shit scared out of me when chelsea called acting scared asking me if i was busying and it ends up jonathan's car just stopped working on I 75 and they needed a ride back to the car to get some stuff. So that made me laugh cause im glad im not the only one having a semi bad weekend. but this morning i got up and was just blaffled and pissed so i took a shower and listen to some music (that matched my mood) and then i went into my room and put on some work out tunes, u know the kind that get u pumped, and i said im going to push myself until i cant move. Well halfway throught the first song i realize that this isnt going to help so i changed my clothes and took a nap. Im going to let that girl know that she did ruin my weekend and she did led me and i followed and now i feel like crap. So close, but i hope things will work out with the other girl.
im just tried of being single. I miss that feeling so much and im trying so hard to find her, but it is truely draining. . .and to top it off my cat samantha has lumps again (cancer) and right now i dont want to loose her. . .i know that i go through alot of crap in my life, that i asked for it, and that ur 10% of what happens to you and 90% of what u make of it. So i want to end with this: all my pain, all the sorrow, all the crap,let downs and crushed hopes, and all the knowledge that ive gained from it, in the end it makes it worth it when someone (friend or stranger) is having a bad time and doesnt know what to do, i can just walk up talk to them and then see them smile. . .that my friends is what makes it all worth it.
Peace Out
and to all my friends and family, i love you and you are the reason why i choose to live!
im just tried of being single. I miss that feeling so much and im trying so hard to find her, but it is truely draining. . .and to top it off my cat samantha has lumps again (cancer) and right now i dont want to loose her. . .i know that i go through alot of crap in my life, that i asked for it, and that ur 10% of what happens to you and 90% of what u make of it. So i want to end with this: all my pain, all the sorrow, all the crap,let downs and crushed hopes, and all the knowledge that ive gained from it, in the end it makes it worth it when someone (friend or stranger) is having a bad time and doesnt know what to do, i can just walk up talk to them and then see them smile. . .that my friends is what makes it all worth it.
Peace Out
and to all my friends and family, i love you and you are the reason why i choose to live!