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[tryfit]

it's been a while. kinda too long. i never update my lj because i'm usually on EL, but now thats gone. so i figured i'd come and update even though i really don't feel like telling you anything.

i dont feel like explaining why me and ris arent friends anymore
i dont feel like explaining the fact that i met a wonderful boy in cancun only to never see him ever again
i dont feel like explaining that my dad is the worst person in my life right now
i dont feel like explaining that i've been through guy after guy
i dont feel like explaining that apparently i tear apart relationships
i dont feel like explaining that, that is not true
i dont feel like explaining that i forget whats a secret and whats not
and i dont feel like explaining that i accidently tell them and regret it

i just dont feel like explaining anything, to be quiet honest.
thats my life now. i've got to accept it i guess.
i'm not depressed, or sad. i'm just, here. i feel so indifferent toward everything.

i probably wont update for another 4 months, haha. maybe i will.
who knows.