Babies, Sister, Friends, Jobs, Food
Damn! Is this the season for baby-having? Everybody is either pregnant or giving birth, it seems like. My boss just came into the office an announced that she too is expecting her second child. Which is great, but I'ma need the mood swings to level out a bit.... (I know that sounds terribly insensitive, but she had a doozy of an attitude with me the day of my almost garbage truck accident, and I was in too fragile a state for that.)
I think it's great that there's so much birth and growth everywhere. A sign that all is not dead in winter and darkness ( literal and figurative). And it means babies around for me to play with and then give back to their parents, lol. Yay for that!
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I saw my sister for about an hour and a half on Saturday. I dragged my good friend Nita (and closest and nearly only close friend in DC-- the person with whom I hang almost every weekend, lol) with me, which was good because she needed to escape some trying situations with her roommates. It was way too short, but the three of us still had fun. When my sister was leaving I was sad, and missing her already before she was even out of sight, lol.
But she's just a very fun person. She makes things easy. She makes it easy for people to like her, and talk to her, and have fun with her and all that. Things with me are much more difficult. Interactions with me are either distant or over-flowing with intense emotion, and as such I'm not for everybody. I'm not easy like Sunday morning, I'm more like the first day going back to work after a holiday or vacation, or a Sunday afternoon where you spent all night Saturday drinking and you wake up with half the day gone and an awful hangover, lol.
During the course of our 90 minutes spent roaming the mall, please tell me WHY a grown-ass man was hitting on my sister talking about how he was starting a record company and maybe she could be his number one fan while his eleven-year old daughter was with him?? SERIOUSLY? He kept trying to shoo his daughter away so she wouldn't screw up his "game", lol. I tell ya. (And it ain't like he didn't know my sister was a MINOR.)
*smh*
It's because she's so nice and conversational, and also because she's cute and hella chesty. She's very petite but her bust is closer to my size than to any secret Victoria ever had, lol. Lord help us and our tired and aching backs.
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There are folks on my friendslist that I very much like and respect. There are also folks not on the list that I like and would like to get to know better. I think I've been waiting around for them to friend me, lol. Journal and positive and humorous-life-outlook wise, I've been in a bit of a slump lately. I don't want to "ask" to friend someone and have them only see my lameness, lol. That will not do! LOL This is one of those middle school situations where you need a third party to act as a go-between. Someone to whisper to them that I think they're cool, and to see if they think I might be cool also before anyone make a move. I can think of some other life situations that could really benefit from that method right about now.
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I'm doing job apps. Well, in theory. I've got a stack of jobs sitting next to my computer, but I haven't done a one cover-letter or sent anything out. I've decided I want to stay in the area for sure. (Mostly because moving is too damn expensive, but also in part because I feel like there isn't really anywhere for me to go. There's nothing for me anywhere else that I would move. Not that there's much here, but I have to stay somewhere long enough to make something. I need some stability, and security in my life. (I also need money) I need to do some of the things in my peace of mind plan-- work out, find discipline and focus (perhaps through some sort of structured activity like tai chi or a martial art), deal with emotional health issues (and whatever that means), see a chiropractor (which may mean investigating breast reduction), stop talking and start writing/performing/being about something (at least more so than I am now), let go of opposition to interaction with human beings no matter what state my heart is in, etc. Peace of mind is where it's at, yo.
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Yesterday, I made garlic and herb encrusted chicken....MMmmmmmm..... It was delicious. (The key is Progresso Garlic and Herb bread crumbs, lol) I'm having it for dinner tonight with either mashed potatoes or roasted potatoes, and either spinach or broccoli. I think I'm also going to use that same chicken recipe to make chicken parmigiana later on. Yums.
I think it's great that there's so much birth and growth everywhere. A sign that all is not dead in winter and darkness ( literal and figurative). And it means babies around for me to play with and then give back to their parents, lol. Yay for that!
_________
I saw my sister for about an hour and a half on Saturday. I dragged my good friend Nita (and closest and nearly only close friend in DC-- the person with whom I hang almost every weekend, lol) with me, which was good because she needed to escape some trying situations with her roommates. It was way too short, but the three of us still had fun. When my sister was leaving I was sad, and missing her already before she was even out of sight, lol.
But she's just a very fun person. She makes things easy. She makes it easy for people to like her, and talk to her, and have fun with her and all that. Things with me are much more difficult. Interactions with me are either distant or over-flowing with intense emotion, and as such I'm not for everybody. I'm not easy like Sunday morning, I'm more like the first day going back to work after a holiday or vacation, or a Sunday afternoon where you spent all night Saturday drinking and you wake up with half the day gone and an awful hangover, lol.
During the course of our 90 minutes spent roaming the mall, please tell me WHY a grown-ass man was hitting on my sister talking about how he was starting a record company and maybe she could be his number one fan while his eleven-year old daughter was with him?? SERIOUSLY? He kept trying to shoo his daughter away so she wouldn't screw up his "game", lol. I tell ya. (And it ain't like he didn't know my sister was a MINOR.)
*smh*
It's because she's so nice and conversational, and also because she's cute and hella chesty. She's very petite but her bust is closer to my size than to any secret Victoria ever had, lol. Lord help us and our tired and aching backs.
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There are folks on my friendslist that I very much like and respect. There are also folks not on the list that I like and would like to get to know better. I think I've been waiting around for them to friend me, lol. Journal and positive and humorous-life-outlook wise, I've been in a bit of a slump lately. I don't want to "ask" to friend someone and have them only see my lameness, lol. That will not do! LOL This is one of those middle school situations where you need a third party to act as a go-between. Someone to whisper to them that I think they're cool, and to see if they think I might be cool also before anyone make a move. I can think of some other life situations that could really benefit from that method right about now.
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I'm doing job apps. Well, in theory. I've got a stack of jobs sitting next to my computer, but I haven't done a one cover-letter or sent anything out. I've decided I want to stay in the area for sure. (Mostly because moving is too damn expensive, but also in part because I feel like there isn't really anywhere for me to go. There's nothing for me anywhere else that I would move. Not that there's much here, but I have to stay somewhere long enough to make something. I need some stability, and security in my life. (I also need money) I need to do some of the things in my peace of mind plan-- work out, find discipline and focus (perhaps through some sort of structured activity like tai chi or a martial art), deal with emotional health issues (and whatever that means), see a chiropractor (which may mean investigating breast reduction), stop talking and start writing/performing/being about something (at least more so than I am now), let go of opposition to interaction with human beings no matter what state my heart is in, etc. Peace of mind is where it's at, yo.
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Yesterday, I made garlic and herb encrusted chicken....MMmmmmmm..... It was delicious. (The key is Progresso Garlic and Herb bread crumbs, lol) I'm having it for dinner tonight with either mashed potatoes or roasted potatoes, and either spinach or broccoli. I think I'm also going to use that same chicken recipe to make chicken parmigiana later on. Yums.