Jul 27, 2005 01:14
I don't even know what the hell is going on in my life anymore. I thought that things would work out and everything would be okay but that's definitely not the case, yet. I don't know whether or not I'm enjoying being single right now...I mean, yeah I can go out and not have to worry about someone else, but at the same time, I miss having someone else. I miss having someone to call and talk to, even if all I do is listen. I miss being able to hold someone and never want to let go and have them feel the same way. I enjoy the freedom, but at the same time I miss having someone here with me. I miss having that...I miss...you...
I haven't been able to finish writing anything lately, I'll start with a good idea but I can never finish it off. I need to get things straight and work everything out if I can. I don't feel happy but I don't feel completely miserable. I'm slightly depressed, but I know that I fucked up a lot of things. I just wish I can make it all go away...or at least make it more barable.