its over.

[truejew16]

just signed on.
read last entry.
i havent written it down yet.
maybe because i dont want to believe it,
so its over.
and not because of the last entry.
that was just a foreshadow.
after i confronted u about being weird.
everything was fine.
but then you came over.
and at first everything was normal.
talking and joking.
then you ask.
how long are we going to do this for..

and everything change sin a blink.
im writting this now.
2 weeks later.

you broke my heart.
you told me you were scared it would ruin our friendship again.
it had to end.
i hu with one of ur best firneds.
not for revenge.
i acually liked him.
looking back.
it was a bad idea.

but everythign is fixed.
well almost.
im still in love with you.
im still broken.
and everytime i see you.
my heart breaks a little more.

but heres the thing.
im broken now.
and i need to get fixed.
but only i can be the one to do it.
so no more hooking up.
no more fooling around.
nothing.
i need to be happy with myself first
and then the rest will come.

i need to stop being scared of being alone.
i need to start being ok with myself.
once i do that.
i can start to let him go.