real human being.

[truejew16]

everyone deserves to be loved back.
everyone deserves to have someone hug them.
kiss them.
hold them.
things you pretend to give me.
its so easy for you to take it back.

i hate waiting.
thinking i did something wrong.

saturday: im about to go to sleep, you text me.
you want me to come over.
you beg.
for 30 minutes,
you actually beg.
i spend the night.

sunday: i go home.
we talk before bed.

monday: you text.
"should i come over tonight ;)"
you come over.
perfection and bliss.

Tuesday: i miss class for you.
you ask me to.
hold me till i stayed.
you go home.
we text for a minute.
i initiated it.

wednesday: no word all day.
until midnight.
one text from you.
i text back.
no response.

thursday: nothing.
..
..

so what happened?
what changed in 6 days?
am i allowed to know?
you havent said a word to me all day.

no need to freak out.
although this distance.
between us.
what is it?
what happened?

what did i do?

and why does it hurt this much.
just to love you.

i deserve to have someone love me back.
i deserve someone to fight for me.
to want me.
just me.

but i cant let u go.
but i want to.
with all my heart,
i swear to u.
i want to.

i want to let u go.
why is it so impossible.
even though i know,
i can do better.

i belong with someone who will love me back.
and i know that will never be u.
i just wish someone would tell my heart that.