Loss
Today is a day for loss, both good and bad.
Last night we had a "band meeting" with Full of Eels and we are going to try something different. Essentially we're acknowledging something that we've known for a while, but that I was still fighting against. We're not really broken up, but the band is going to be come a recording-only project. With the economy being what it is, I'd been roughly double-paying on rent for the last 20 months and awesomeryan and animal were both starting to feel the pinch from everything else as well. Also with everyone else being recently married the spouses are, understandably, wanting to be prioritized over the band. Finish the whole thing off with the problem that we had that old chicken-egg problem with kati that she wanted to practice only when we had gigs on the calendar and I wasn't going to try and find gigs unless I was convinced we could play a 3 hour set and the band was just a reading band anyway.
So we're going to start recording everything we've got written and try to sell the songs as songwriters rather than try to perform them. But that hurts me because I already do my own demos and the thing I want to do is perform. I feel like agreeing to this was more along the lines of when you break up with someone and say "It wasn't you, it's me. I still want to be friends." and then you never call her again. It makes the breakup easier, and it's not a bad idea, but it doesn't do much for you.
So maybe it'll work out ok. I'm open to selling a lot of my stuff. But as soon as I've got my work situation understood with some of the travel next year then I'll likely start looking for another group.
On the plus side of loss, I did my weigh in this morning and I'VE LOST 25 LBS! I'm averaging just under 2.5 lbs a week. Weight watchers is being annoying because they just put up a nag message saying that I'm losing weight too fast (more than 2 lbs a week) and need to consult a doctor. I'm really not convinced that losing 2.3 lbs a week is all that different from 2.0, especially since I've got my doctor cheering me on. I wish I could turn off the nag menu.
Anyway, the conventions start tonight. I've still got more work than normal. The band thing won't feel like a real loss for another few weeks. Maybe by then I'll be in another group anyway. We'll see.
Last night we had a "band meeting" with Full of Eels and we are going to try something different. Essentially we're acknowledging something that we've known for a while, but that I was still fighting against. We're not really broken up, but the band is going to be come a recording-only project. With the economy being what it is, I'd been roughly double-paying on rent for the last 20 months and awesomeryan and animal were both starting to feel the pinch from everything else as well. Also with everyone else being recently married the spouses are, understandably, wanting to be prioritized over the band. Finish the whole thing off with the problem that we had that old chicken-egg problem with kati that she wanted to practice only when we had gigs on the calendar and I wasn't going to try and find gigs unless I was convinced we could play a 3 hour set and the band was just a reading band anyway.
So we're going to start recording everything we've got written and try to sell the songs as songwriters rather than try to perform them. But that hurts me because I already do my own demos and the thing I want to do is perform. I feel like agreeing to this was more along the lines of when you break up with someone and say "It wasn't you, it's me. I still want to be friends." and then you never call her again. It makes the breakup easier, and it's not a bad idea, but it doesn't do much for you.
So maybe it'll work out ok. I'm open to selling a lot of my stuff. But as soon as I've got my work situation understood with some of the travel next year then I'll likely start looking for another group.
On the plus side of loss, I did my weigh in this morning and I'VE LOST 25 LBS! I'm averaging just under 2.5 lbs a week. Weight watchers is being annoying because they just put up a nag message saying that I'm losing weight too fast (more than 2 lbs a week) and need to consult a doctor. I'm really not convinced that losing 2.3 lbs a week is all that different from 2.0, especially since I've got my doctor cheering me on. I wish I could turn off the nag menu.
Anyway, the conventions start tonight. I've still got more work than normal. The band thing won't feel like a real loss for another few weeks. Maybe by then I'll be in another group anyway. We'll see.